Great. Carolyn's going to INDO today, i am gonna miss her :( Come back fast k, thai was awesome only when it's with you!

Oh oh, this morning i heard this song by 郭静-知道. Seems nice! She sounds exactly like Angela at certain pitches. Time for me to really start venturing on my demo and then take the classes if of approval. Every single person i know of now is so determine to pick up driving. So i shall not dive in and join the rest. I shall learn something else instead. Driving can wait. My two feet do bring me far. Not to mention that much neglected portfolio of mine. Shopping, i need therapy and last episode of Gossip Girl was heartwarming. (:


Sometimes i must say i am thankful to have a person who is willing to go eat shaker fries and mc flurry with me when i was so damn angry and pissed off at some imbecile yesterday. Hearing those talks and things that i have not taken into consideration makes me feel so guilty. Sorry sy. I will start to ponder about it. Thanks though! Love much.

Ok off for some career fair with that Bimbotic girl and then it's the last outing with the OGLs.
Things with Suntec has been progressing. We need to find back what it takes to leave an impression throughout. It's a little off the railway track now but the train is gonna keep going, i am sure of it!


ps: i wonder how does it feel to have your own Cd and soundtracks playing in music stores, having your very own stage to sing in. Every single time, it gets to me.

Had alot of fun. (:

and this is a beautiful piece that ryan has ever done. The lines and everything. bet they "kek" alot of muscles hahahs

Been giving me alot of problems lately..pain, excruciating. I need treatment soon. But then again, there's competitions and recital next month. What a great time.

This place, honourary daily at 4 pm.

I will play the usual songs, jog a circle around, mute my songs and i can hear my constant heartbeat while running, then i will persevere and keep running ahead every hour.

It has been a habit.

sometimes people say that we run to get thoughts off our mind, but at times we realise you just tend to think of it every pace you make. Then you keep thinking about it in order to keep you going, because

"what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger"

So i killed alot of thoughts at the basement.

today

and they say "whatever that's done in the basement stays in the basement."

Chanced upon this and decided to leave these post -it notes ( to serve as a gentle reminder) for all the Rechargeable Voniques (:

• Last- e journal - due next week
• MTV Groove- Monday
• Modern Exam- 5th August
• FYP- final year project for SIP portfolio 11th August 50% of course grades
• SUNTEC Auditions- 15th August

"Disorder"


am i?

VONIQUE

It represents a unique kind of voltage that every single dancer possesses.

.

Here we come. (:

n. - アドレナリン


A.d.r.e.n.a.l.i.n.e

I know im not ok. I know i feel so useless. I know i felt pain. I think its insomnia. Another scar for collection

7%

"Good Read during the oh so cereal mornings.. " (:

“To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me It is the most-requested column I’ve ever written.”

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don’t have to win every argument.. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’ s, we’d grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”

Its estimated 93% won’t forward this. If you are one of the

7% who will, forward this with the title ‘7%’.

I’m in the 7%.

Remember that I will always share my spoon with you!

Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

just maybe i can be a columnist.. like the one in Marley and Me.. Geeee

(Kinda obvious that those highlighted in grey are the ones i'm gonna start to begin with from this moment onwards)

Feeling rather lost for a moment. What's the next step? Why can't i listen and feel. Very deprived of inspiration, including garnering that motivation. Where has it gone to? Oh where for art thou.

Seems so impossible all of a sudden to reach what i want. Sometimes you can have it at the moment, but multiple factors manipulates a "push and pull" relationship that you can't falter or let go of. One word, "understanding".

Empathise and actually understand the reasons for absence. I mean i've been through it. The lack of sleep, the need to be at two places at one time, the inability to concentrate because at the back of your mind something, somewhat needs you to be there but you cant be. The lost of strength to explain, when all else doubts you. The accusations, misunderstandings. That was the GEMS period. The period when everything came crushing down, but i did it. Impossibly on my own. I still remember every single detail, every single person, every encouragement, every second before i went on stage and every single cell in me that wanted to be stubborn and just go against all odds for it. The risk of losing my education possibly because it's really inexplicable here. The lost of a loved one, including rushing for a supplementary paper. Holding on to the threads that hang loosely on the verge of breaking for both worlds. Reality vs what i truly want that's like fiction.

The period where i broke down for the very first time in front of my two best friends that have never seen me cry like this outside in front of the public. Cabbing down every single time, changing in the taxi possibly and tying the shoelaces crying because its helpless. The repulsion of food because fatigue sets in. Remembering steps as if i have never done it so fast before. Trying very hard, really hard to catch up with the rest in order to not pull myself down and be a disappointment.

I remembered every single detail of it. Every tear i shed at night to sleep. The seconds and tapping of the calculator ensuring that my answers on the accounting sheet was gonna see me through the next semester and so that i can make it on stage at ease. Every phonecall i made, even to my mum. Helpless? i guess. If ive been through that, what is now. I am sure i can do it. But this time, the tables are turn. It's not about me anymore. It's about a team. I guess the strength of having 7 is so much more overwhelming. I need to start thinking for others. To sacrifice myself for a bit of something that everyone wants. To be the bigger person. To ensure that we can do this despite all the obstacles we are facing. Trust. I am sure we have it. It's reality.

Liting be strong. You can do this. For everyone, for everyone else except for yourself for this once. Then you can safely say, this last wish is the best takeaway.

Not G00d

I am having a fever now.

Does that mean? ._.

"Railway lines that parallels the Horizon"

Highlights

Tau huey with Sugar ginger
Egg tart freshly baked from oven eating under shelters whilst raining
Dope nike dunks in purple and opal coding
Gladiators in Studded and gold stripes, red polished
Char Siew and Dim Sum
Train and Sunny Blue Skies
W Boutique hotel with an open bathroom concept, sliding doors.


Tired, Update Tomorrow hahas (:
Heard this on the plane and i thought, it is really one of the best of her
songs.


所有人都勸我小心

你一定會帶來傷心

我微笑但沒有回應

聞著你黑色的皮衣

聞到了奔馳的刺激

你載我飛去看流星

他們用聽說來決定

我要用抱你來懂你

不夠靠近 誰看得清


我自己找答案 誰說的都不算

你會是禮物還是炸彈

就讓我親手打開看

要自己找答案

每顆心都有陰暗和蔚藍

只有我看過你脆弱簡單


她留的照片還有信

你點火燒成了灰燼

說有我不需要曾經

把最後一口煙吐盡

你吻我到不能呼吸

我哭了但沒有聲音

他們用聽說來決定

我要用抱你來懂你

不夠靠近 誰看得清


我自己找答案 誰說的都不算

你會是禮物還是炸彈

就讓我親手打開看

要自己找答案

每顆心都有陰暗和蔚藍

只有我看過你脆弱簡單


我自己找答案 誰說的都不算

你會是禮物還是炸彈

就讓我親手打開看

我自己找答案

每顆心都有陰暗和蔚藍

我只想安慰你有的混亂


我只想安慰你有的混亂


coming back home for the first time cant feel more at ease.

Home sweet home

Nighty!

>:(

Curse that soab that stole my "ice cream".


bet that ______ didn knew how much memories i have in it. The photos, the numbers, especially the messages. >:'(

How can anyone be so heartless.

i feel so insecure.

Sleeping beside it was a daily essential to feel safe.

Tonight is a little different.

Bon Voyage

Self Inflicted



Pain- self inflicted
Dance- self inflicted
Determination- self inflicted
Decisions- Self inflicted

Destruction- self inflicted
Regain- self inflicted





Boundaries?

"The strength of women is the pretense of weakness, and the weakness of men is the pretense of strength"

Feeling a little homie today. Just crawling under my bedsheets whilst the raindrops are pelting. 16 degrees and my head is numb, body aching finishing up that portfolio. I am half way typing through when i came across, personal development.

Weakness much? I guess every humans' weaknesses lies in not telling how much they love each other, that hesitance is always left till the very last minute. Pros and Cons? Pros that it doesn't become habitual when you highlight to an individual how much you love him/her. Cons, it's a little too late. Everything is done a little slightly later than a predicament. Humbly asking if what's left? It's just a deep moment of acceptance and nothing can be done.

The negligence of regrets unintentionally veils itself beneath this mask.There's a basic human weakness inherent in all people which tempts them to want what they can't have and not want what is readily available to them.

Does that apply to dance as well? To want what you can't have? To turn this weakness into strength, is the most beautiful thing about it. I will go against the currents, like i've always been. I want to say yes and i want to say no. It's control.

Flying off in 48 hours

"Burning Bridges In Denial, Bruised me"

This is insanely crazy. It's like a chase through your anatomy. How i feel like a chewy bubblegum that's been overstretched, bruised in tatters and torn. Like a search engine in fixed. Type muscle pains, and you find it every corner and eensy weensy bit. Especially the two ultra ring-liked bruises on my knee cap.


Check out my new perfume. hahas (: It says:" Huo Luo Tie Da Jiu" I smell like a chinese medicinal hall. :| Thanks for it though Mr Chee Bong and Smiling hero has healing hands. The centre part regained blood circulation again. I think i can finally sleep on the left side of my bed! Turning and tossing with much difficulty. On top of that, my room's in a thorough mess. It's like chaos. ._. and i need to start working on that unfinished portfolio. Hard to say no, i realised.

How How How? I need to pack my luggage too. :( Drafting out a "to do" list that fills the length of the red carpet.

Mommy bought 48 masks. To bring to HK. Cute or What (:
I need to quarantine myself for a week when i come back.

Dance Quarantine?

If you realised, it was never about winning.


Just feeding on memories as days go by.

Deadline is drawing near. For the very first time, i am afraid. I am afraid. :'(

I dun wanna lie anymore

Denial really isn't the best friend you should impose on yourself.- 2 secs ago