One month

Its been a month since ive started dancing.This past month,ive expand my dance vocabulary.Ive learned to listen to music not in my ears but in my heart.Every choreo to me is an art that i will wanna perfect no matter how tedious it is.Although i did mention once that i placed singing as my first passion, now dance has taken its place slowly and gradually.I have no idea if its bad or something but i know nothing can replace dance for me for the next 2 years down the road.The plug-ins and rhythm kills me.I will start marking my steps on the train,at bustops and any mirror reflection possible.I wanna place this necessity as a long term route that ive just begun.I may be new to this world of mine but i will grow as i learn everyday.This past one month for me have been full of ups and downs.The closer ones to me should know.Ive so much plans for myself ahead,i cant wait.If its too early to say this,i will play it repetitively in my mind that i will dance fruitfuly.I will listen more attentively and nothing gets into the bubble when i start dancing,all i need is more concentration, more knowledge and more support and faith.I dont need recognition at this stage, i just need encouragement.

There, its been stuck in my heart for so long,ive said it all out.

Spiderwick Chronicles

Orphange

Orfanato (: (spanish)

i like the spanish poster better :D
Caught this two movies today and went out with INDO TANU (:
Movie wise, both plots were awesome.Freddy highmore !!!! He acted in August Rush.I caught it on plane when i was flying to HK.Frikkin nearly cried.Its bout music and love of a lost one who found his loved parents from a missing 6 months through the sounds of music.(MUST CATCH)

Its been a long time since we last met.Its amazing how it wasnt awkward and all,i seriously cherish our friendship.Its not as if i can talk so freely around anyone anymore.<3
The best thing is we've got the same birthday and same year some more.
BK mushroom swiss+ roadstall 3-in-1 attapchee sweet corn choc icecream+fried scallops and chicken by hot gv guy= awesome!
We must do this again and again and those mid-night movies where we are still bitching away while half the world is sleeping+ those long cab rides where we talk about how both of us must attend each other's wedding.I solemly swear we will not drift away.Its just impossible :D
(miss those SB bar smacking,pos slamming days!)<3

M AND M'S

"Allowing movement to come through us in the form of pure energy and onto a highly trained yet raw instrument defines the ultimate "dancer".One that knows how to pull from a technique and also when to leave technique alone and head straight to the heart of the matter.One that knows how to pull from the rawness and humaness that would drip from their own personal journey through this world and allows the movement to come from inside out...That is beautiful."


"Its so easy to hide behind steps...its much deeper than that.Our goal should not just be to perfect what a choreographer gives us but also allow our own unique voice as a dancer to come through and marry to the energy of the choreographer...that is beautiful"


Thats just a part of it.
Mia Michaels, you'r truly now my inspiration.
Theres no turning back because its what i want most, i can breathe it.

im in love with mickryan

Fly offs

Im really happy today.From inside out.
You know when you improve, your body shows and those inner feelings..you just know it.Im getting to know how to manipulate my body to these moves every day.

The best thing is, the hives did not came today.Not even one red spot.Miracle? Of course not, i took 2 pills before i went but he said it would be harmless even if i took these pills for years because some entertainers take them just for performances when they get urticaria.Did two serious tough shit choreo today and the first one, i caught the steps real fast.Usually i will lag behind by a beat and its frustrating the hell out of me.Today, i did not just marked through,i danced.My aim now is even higher.Hope my body will be able to withstand my desires.You have to feel the choreo and not just remember it in your mind.

Its 6 hours before i fly to HK,ive decided to not bring my cam cause its a real short trip and the only thing im gonna do is shopping.Its such a hassle to bring a cam on a shopping trip when you still have to charge it.6 hours to departure( blardy morning flights).Im done here for the night.

heres a video i watched today.Thanks to ruth for sharing :D
With this, you wont get hungry anywhere.

Koizora :D
This DAMN movie made me cried 3 times in a row in a day.I was wondering why so many of my friends cried when they watched it,so being the stubborn me refuses to believe and dragged bro to watch it with me.OK not dragged hahas.It was a last min decision.So tell me if i havent digressed enough, Miura Himura is frikin 18 years old ( my age )Dont steal him, hes mine!He is my type of boyfriend.He is everything on my list.I swear you guys have to watch this movie. Yes its a typical cliche crappy love movie but the actors and actresses made this a hit.Theres a twist at the end of the story so look out.The whole cinema's sniffing away and the lady beside me used like dunno how many tissues lol :D. From now on, i shall only like jap guys with white hair.(not OLD MEN )

Yesterday went for my blood test again and the dermathologist to see my condition and my right hand.She frikkin drew a syringe-filled of blood out of me.:/ So yes its called Cholinergic urticaria.Theres no certain cure to it yet but its not deadly just that it may stick with me a several years. That killed me mentally.Whatever it is, im staying optimistic.He wanted to prescribe me pills to take before i go for dance but i said no because i dont wanna overrely on these pills for a long-term period.But i have this feeling i will go back to him soon out of desperation.Its been a pretty long week with the fever and the ever weak stomach these days just keep failing me. I think my system's going haywire these days.I need to get better soon.I do do not wanna fall sick when i fly off.

Thanks to all who msged me and left me long msges on msn (yunn (:) you guys are the sweetest.Thanks for the concern.i will get over this rough patch soon and that is im still going for dance without any doubt.

Well ana you're late
And maya, i'm here.
The boys in the band,
Decide to appear.
We walk through the door
Savour the air.
The girls on the floor,
I've come here to stare.
We've come here to stare.

Yeah

Dont touch the girls,
Dont kiss the girls,
I have the right to pull the girls.
Get in a fight,
On every night,
The scratches, the bruises and the bites.
But i wanna touch,
And i wanna kiss,
And if you say no then i will persist,
With you tonight,
You'll make it right.
You know that you're wetting my appetite.

You can call me x,
You can call me y,
You can call me z,
You can come and try.
Come and try.

Dont know what you think you're doing to me,
(Hey! Stripper, Hey! Stripper)
Dont know what you see its getting to me,
(Hey! Stripper, Hey! I wanna be your mister)
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na

Like you're perfume,
Your skin is smooth.
The way you move,
Im in the mood.
Tease the crowd,
Please the crowd,
I'm boiling i want you to see me now.
You get me girl,
When you're nervous well,
And when your hand is in the thong.
You may be right,
I close them tight,
You're saving the best for me tonight.

You can call me x,
You can call me y,
You can call me z,
You can come and try.
Come and try.

Dont know what you think you're doing to me,
(Hey! Stripper, Hey! Stripper)
Dont know what you see its getting to me,
(Hey! Stripper, Hey! I wanna be your mister)
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na

I've come to stare,
I've come to stare,
You like me to stare?
I like your underwear.

I've come to stare,
I've come to stare,
You like me to stare?
I am a voyeur.

Dont know what you think you're doing to me,
(Hey! Stripper, Hey! Stripper)
Dont know what you see its getting to me,
(Hey! Stripper, Hey! I wanna be your mister)
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na
Na na, Na na, Na na, Na na, Na

ps: i can just imagine bryan doing a choreo like this;
This earworm has got me good.

Gossip Girl

Its 12.15 am

just woke up and ate my dinner.
Shall not talk about the series of events that happened hours ago again.Just wanna say thanks to Charlene Judith Lee,yes you sweet girl.Your sms made me felt much better knowing that your eight floors under :D To all my JC friends,All the best for all your papers.Have faith and fret not,cause hardwork and efforts pay off.(:

SINCE IM PROBABLY GONNA BE AWAKE TILL DAWN:
let me post up some lovely pics of my favourite drama serial.I get it, the whole world's watching it.Then again there are still some people who dont know what they are missing out right?You guys really have to catch this show and its none other than Gossip girl.Just let these georgeous pics do the talking cause apparently im not in the mood to type out a long post.Too much happened today and some feelings are better kept to ourselves because you wont wanna affect other people's mood too.




Blair's really georgeous.She do vintage really well.Pearls and black laces with white stockings are such a scene on her.



Nate's awesome! But DAN's a sweetheart (: Serena's yeah the IT girl (:



Love this pic the most.


PS: Just when he said i was good at b-boy, my body turned me down.Seriously..

tell me if this is fair

My rebelliousness caused me to suffer today.
i went for dance. Non stop for a whole 3 hours.Both Simei and ks tower.
Everthing was alright at simei.I even took 4 pills before i went.Not sure of what kind of medication i was taking, i just took it.All i know it was some medcine for the allergy.My body coorperates unexceptionally well.Even i thought there wouldnt be any wrong with me after glady's and andy's classes.Unlike usual i would go home ending up with a whole body of it.So i headed for (what i really should have known earlier) ks for b-boy.That killed me.

I left the class half an hour because my body started its viscious cycle again this time,somewhere far away from home.Not any 5 mins cab ride that can save me from the unwanted stares and painful itch.I rushed to the ladies as fast as i could.Went to the showers and closed the curtains ,squat on the floor hoping it would subside but it didnt.I swear i was crying silently inside because i know this time im in for shit.I was seriously chanting in my head hoping someone can save me and bring me back home right away.Its at raffles place,i would have to take the train back home with my condition.Bro was still in class,whats worse was that my phone was not with me at all. My bag was in class, i was stuck in the showers with other girls just outside the mirrors.i was trapped. I know what i would get if they had saw me.Those questionable stares which clearly i wouldnt had the chance to tell them.They will never understand.

In the end, i caught bro at the right time and we immediately rushed out of ks towers and cabbed home.I rushed to the showers only to find my body covered with 3/4 of it, my eyes swollen and it felt exactly like 1000 needles poking its edge on my skin.i felt confined by my body.I liked what we learned today. i really love it but i cant continue even with one lesson.So what if this is what i ever really love but i cant continue with it due to my condition.WHY IS IT SO UNFAIR?

just let me sleep the day off as im typing this, i dont know what to do anymore.I feel as if im paralysed by my condition.You have all the things you want to learn but your body does not allow you to do so, will you be able to understand how devastating that is to me?If this really happened in hk or shanghai, its not as if i can just take the plane and fly back home.I will just die there.

im so disappointed with myself.This has gotta be the worse day ever in seventeen years of my life.Some nightmare thats actually true in real life.

The Streets

This has gotta hit the spot.
If i was given a chance to venture onto the streets in LA, i would exchange anything for it.Couldnt care less to explain to you that exaggerating comment but theres gotta be something everyone wants more than anything in their life.

Caught STEP UP 2 the streets today (: It totally made my week. Especially when you catch it with two of your close friends on a friday night.Totally couldnt recognise Channing Tatum!Hes SO UNRECOGNISABLY hot!Love Brianna Evigan.Just when i thought i settled on a comfortable spot in dance, i realise there are actually a whole lot more out there for me to venture.Was argueing on how short a lifespan of a dancer could be,but when you think about it we've got only one life.If we can with no doubt or unquestionably pursue what we love in a lifetime, there should be no regrets.Nothing's ever stop me before, so i shoudnt fret over it.

I loved the way she said:"let's bring it to the streets where it all started"
I still think crumping is love <3 who says girls cant crump.Its not about what we wear or who we are, its how we dance.This is gonna be stuck on my head for a pretty long time.

OH yes today marks the end of my GC lectures, common test will be on Monday at 6 pm.Which is the 17th of march. 4 days later i will be flying off to HK ,hence here will be on hiatus for a period of 5 days.I cant wait to travel.Its where i find most of my comfort at.You know that" completely-dont-have-to-worry-no-shit" kind of feeling? Awesome.

Btw this quote came from tutorial today. Thought its really true so wanna share it with you guys (:

"The interconnectedness of life is both a blessing and a curse;possibilities are boundless and consequences endless.Every value judgement we make ripples into a life somewhere."

True huh? How i wish i have a job opportunity to Africa and help those kids there.I realise this CDS really teaches you to think for the world rather than your own self-being.Cant wait for the Shanghai trip.

Tmrow's hiphop,and b-boy. its that sat 1-2pms :D feeling the butterflies in my stomach already ((:

lights out <3

when i look at the undecipitated heat and the moment the red dots start appearing,i wonder if my expiry date for dance is up.

its ok if you dont understand what i mean because you never will.Its just devastating when a dream is crushed or maybe im living with a timebomb in my body.Any moment, it might just give me away. Im trying to hide this condition of mine.Im still doing very well.i know its ugly but i hope it doesnt kills.

The day i get back the results, i hope he wont say i cant dance anymore.
Blood tests just leave me hanging on the line.

All i want is to dance.So please dont make me disappointed.

Miscellaneaous

Ive been missing out on dance lessons lately. Missed yutaki's class on wednesday, choon hui's hiphop class today and im most prolly gonna miss it again tmrow :/ ..oh WTH! and erm its bryan's class TMROW??? *sobs*

BUT A PROMISE IS A PROMISE.

piano lessons for derrick. aye? (: hahahs. because i hate people who make empty promises( note: not those who break em) so im not gonna be one since ive said that.
If you break em, at least you have an excuse.But an empty promise is one that you know you cant fufill but yet still made one.See the diff?

GC is driving me crazy. Who wakes up everyday at 8.30 am?? HUH HUH but the field trip to ACM today was awesome (: IVE MADE MUCH FRIENDS that cracks me up i hope shang hai is gonna be a memorable trip.Now that we are gonna visit the orphanage, i hope that one wont make me too emotional.RAH! i just cant stand parents who abandon kids?!
On a lighter note, i will be going away to hongkong before leaving for shanghai for a shopping trip.All these are made possible because the results i got today = NO SUPP PAPER :D .A for French.i can totally BONJOUR my ass to France.

IF i ever learn the choreo for this, i will be contented. AYE why am i so easily satisfied.I need to challenge my physique.


lights out. :D STEP UP 2 !!!! i cant wait.But why oh why no Channing Tatum??? :/

Romp stomp

Second-hand smoke was my best friend last night. It stuck on to me for a whole 3 hours.I was most probably inhaling half of what the annonymous was exhaling on his cherry stick right in front of me.If i was half of what they are, i would have totally went right up to him and snap his bud into two.Making things even worse,my nose totaly sniffed malboro and many other shit smokes last night resulting in a splitting migraine before i even entered zouk.I vow on my mother's maiden name that if i ever smoke cracks,i would die a tragic death,AMEN.

It took a whole one and a half hour plus before we even went in for Romp 3,the planning was in a utter mess.CUT QUEUE was def the greatest invention of an idea, man ever had.Familiar faces were all around cause apparently the ones selling the tickets were from my ex-school.When you thought cine was worse, i had never seen so many ah lians and ah bengs in my whole life before outside the exterior of zouk.What more about the cbs and knns i heard the whole night. I totally deduce that if you can speak like a tweety high- pitch bird, you have the utmost potential to be an ahlian~

It was definitely disappointing but i guess it wouldnt have been even more disappointing than what dr felt.Its alright bitch, i got your back, its cool :D i wont divulge because there are always things you dont want people to dig into.Dance comp wise, i thought S.I.C.K was awesome rather than flair nation. S.I.C.K had awesome techniques!The girls could totally do their waves and isolations and flair nation's tricks got the better advantage i guess.

Headed for my so called supper but when we reached ps at 12.30 am the mall was already closed, but mac was open in it so we couldnt crash.Therefore shared a cab with dr and headed home.I could hear my pores screaming the whole time, my whole dress was stenched with the odour of smoke.
WORD OF ADVICE: UNDERAGED PARTIES SUCK, make it legal when your 18 you have freedom and space.


on a better note,im looking forward to my evry week's sat 1-2pm because hes always there ((:

oh no..

and yes yes bryan's:" its your chestses not your breastest ar !" that made me cracked real hard :D

last but not least credits to tammy who sold me the tics for the pics.Wanted nice pics of the event but samm and i left the damn cam at the baggage counter. BLUR case.

thy domestic goddess

Whats more intriguing then watching someone who indulge in sweet solace and her comfort capsule? My 12 pms are spend everyday watching these utter divinations from frozen sorbets to cream and luscious chocolate.I cant imagine without her in my travel and living channel.

yes, most might have guessed it correctly.Its none other than Nigella lawson.The so called "plump breasted turkey" while her critics would love to put it this way but i would love to name her the domestic goddess.The perfect wife and the perfect role model or dream mother any child would love to have.I mean growing kids would totally submit to her homemade cheese pancakes, what more adults who adore her frozen raspberry yoghurt in martini glasses.Personaly, i think her cupcakes are delightful and definitely georgeous.I shall post that up someday and you will have no choice but to agree with me. It hard to deny that if she really did slim down or met marykate(you know the aneroxic?) she would have been a great PLUS SIZE MODEL. :D

so heres one of her videos, if you have travel and living please hop on the nigella's express every friday on 8.30pm, or people who are usually not at home at night catch her every day on 12 in the afternoon.You wont regret her "food porn".


and did i mention i love her sniffing out her fridge every night before she turns in.

Crunches Scrunches

Y'all its the Hols!! :D im decking it! (Deck the Hol's)
Its a pretty mundane sunday morning at 9.45 am. Please do not ask me why im up so early because im amused with my stupidity which clearly if i did mention the whole chunk of it out here, i will just feel my inferiority :/.

Yesterday was MTV and hiphop with Andy and Glady.Every saturday i shall name it the crunches day.We did crunches like no one's business and she just kept asking us to go :" lower lower lower, crunches is good for you".I could feel my whole body shaking while maintaining my crunched stomach.She is monsterously fit. DONT ASK ME HOW I GOT THAT WORD.We did this song though, the choreo was alright and its one of the soundtracks thats gonna be used in step up 2 the upcoming movie which everyone gotta catch!

Hiphop was alright, did Gone by Nsync.Awesome choreo,i felt like a guy while dancing it. One of those guys trying ta get the attention of a girl. Sometimes i feel i have genetic disorder.More masculine genes than feminine ones :D But obviously Bryan's latin hiphop was the SHITZ this week.We did next -just tonight, him dancing in that orange hood, if he was straight i would have gone up and ask him for a date :X hahas but hes obviously not my kind.

ive been taking pills before going for dance lessons.I wonder if its good or bad really :/. But if i dont take them, my allergy will come due to the undecipitated heat in my body.Medication for the passion i suppose :x

Yunn and audd dropped by (: love those heart to heart talks from secondary schools to poly life by the pool side. I love you guys cant wait for our friday workout day :D

Thats bout all, 2 days to romp 3. Excitement-o-meter: 11/10