Yew, dun worry..
I'm really not like that HAHAHAHHAHA!

There is one place in this world that makes me feel at ease.

That is every single second when you hold my hand, every single kiss you steal and every hug and comfort you give.

You may not say it as much as i do, but i know deep inside how you feel.
I havent slept a wink after receiving some news.

But when i realised for a second and a moment that you are here with me in my life, everything just seems a little less worrying.

Tell me if this is love?Something that i was so afraid to fall into for such a long period of time.
You teaching me to dance, i clutching to your sweaty shirt and still loving every bit of you.

I love you so much. I will cherish you baby.
Before i go, before i make a choice,
I want to be with you every minute, every second of my life..

" We are what we eat.. "

HIEEE (: hahas! I looked back at my gastronomy chart.. well ( that sounded kinda absurd) But, hahas secretly i do have one. At the back of my head. The whole circle of friends knows that my family eats healthy. Some habit i have cultivated since young. No choice. So even the snacks are well.. on the lower spectrum. But this few days, i realised my taste buds changed. I no longer snack on solely just sweet stuff. Well not entirely just sweet.. hahas! I like to pair sweet with sour, Sweet with salty and bitter sweet. Hmm.. LOOK AT WHAT IVE ate this week. All in the serving of i litre tub of lemon sorbet, one bun and 3 golden kiwis. The frozen raspberries? one whole bag. :O omg! hahahs! I think im going citrus hahahahs! Btw,Provence is thy best bakery. You should also check out their chocolate crossaint. The one that BTP bought today i think. hahas! Ok clark quay has one. I remembered jonas ate one before, before we went to Music garage. :D hahas! Random post, but thought i should share whats nice!! :D at least to me ._.

Provence Brazilian Cheese Buns

Frozen raspb and Lemon sorbet.. perfect combi! :D hahas

Golden kiwis are normally sweeter than the original greenish ones. Those are super sour :(

You can try to include this to a healthier snack diet. Omit the cheesebunz If you are thinking super healthy. Cause that one is an exception D:

Eves Class today was awesome. I love how she put in attitude into choreography. Its killing two birds with one stone. (:

Honoured to dance and an honour to learn every single day. Gotta keep this drive and attitude.
What is it again?.. yes The law of attraction that baby diligently explained through his tiny scribbles on a piece of neatly folded paper. hahahs :D silly boy!

And i did my passport today!!! hohoho changed it cause the picture is super oooluu outdated and agent is afraid i might not pass the gantry cause i underwent plastic surgery :o OOPS hahahhas jk. (: lol! So.. basically when the online visa is an " ok" CHECKED ! and i can fly off smooth on sunday. <3

Failure teaches you to learn from your wrong choices and make right ones.. in addition, it motivates you to improve and see a different dimension from those that have achieved.
We all fail at certain point in our life, all we need to do is brush away the dirt,clean our bruises, wipe away our tears, pull up our socks and we are ready to go again (:

Good night everyone !


Byes! <3

Cause we are asking one another to change.. and maybe im not ready but i will try for your love (:

OMG.. i love his voice. Take a minute, mute my mixpod and click this. You won't regret!

Yew, you are the only one that i love. So much ..that nothing matters when i'm with you.

<3

and wo de DAO MING SI HAHAHS (: with his bandanna..
are you gonna bring him back for me? lol

We are going to go through every problems we have and overcome it.Like how we can sit down and talk about it today. I love this feeling. My heart only belongs to you.

You are the only one i want to walk with me through this journey.

Sleep tight baby. (: You need rest after that tedious camp. but whatever that you've learn from it, was fruitful and i am glad i could hear you say about it. <3

i remembered having a conversation about this last week.
Something about getting better.

I cant remember it was with who though.

I like the fact that i cant remember things within short period of time.
It's like getting to taste amnesia for a split second.

when .. in reality you know you can't.

On a lighter note, i love marie digby.. one of her tracks.. second on my mixpod, you can click to hear it at the side bar.

There's a light in the dark
Where the sky splits apart
Where the stars find a way
To shine through all the spaces in between
Here we are face to face
All alone in this place
And the night is finally coming down to you and me

Tell me where you've been hiding?
OOooh I want to know
You're my silver lining covered in gold
Tell me what am I feeling?
Well it's hard to explain
Like underwater breathing
Swimming in rain

Oh oh... All I really wanna do, do
Is fall a little deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing breathing underwater
Weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing breathing underwater

I wanna fly through the blue
Lay on the bottom with you
Get lost in the waves,
Let the world slip away
When nobody can find us,

I don't wanna be saved
Leave it all behind us,
Make an escape
Tell me what am I feeling?
Ohhh it's hard to explain
Like underwater breathing,
Swimming in rain

Oh oh... All I really wanna do, do
Is fall a little deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing breathing underwater
Weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing breathing underwater

Wanna go to the edge
Wanna dive in again
Here we are face to face
All alone in this place
And it's finally coming down to you and me

Oh oh... All I really wanna do, do
Is fall a little deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing breathing underwater
Weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I'm breathing, breathing breathing underwater


Breathing underwater

Mommy left for bkk yest morning.. and i remembered vividly she came into my room and told me to be good while i was still sleeping. I guess i answered her sheepishly and she left. Today, i did the laundry and lay the clothes at the balcony just breathing in the sunshine. Sometimes, when someone is quite distant away from you, a part of you feels missing. Then again, i wished to be the one that was leaving though. 4th October come to me soon. I need some space and time. And i figured nothing like feeding , talking and soaking my feet in the waters near dolphins at tangalooma would do the trick. Can't wait btp! (:

Beauty

and i can totally picture if we did it for gems 5 or the upcoming concert.. OMG..speechless

The reason why i have never gave up from the very start in contemporary, is because i realised i find solace in it. Something comforting that i know i can express myself through it. Recent Modern class, Ryan mentioned about his Dad's departure. A lost of a loved one. Something close to my heart. Through this year, i have never really mentioned about dance in this space because i know writing it is an understatement. People who don't dance will never ever understand hence reading it will create judgmental situations and stereotypes, but today i figured out i needed to let certain things out.

The very first time i learn to do spins, i felt crippled. It's so easy isn't it? Everyone had a certain background, ballet, contemporary.. i had nothing. i admit i was hopeless and disappointments never failed to knock at my door each time i left the studio. Every Wednesday night might be a normal modern lesson to anyone, to me it's something close to my heart. Because every thing shared during that two hours, taught me things that i can relate to. It's the only time where i realised i am not afraid to fall and stumble, to do things that my body is foreign to. My techniques were never strong, but i told myself :" give yourself a year and try to feel the music train, stretch, love the pain, your muscles will get use to this"..

Last night, F told me that the way i did modern was very different. It's a pro and con. I know what she was referring to. To me, i realised my emotions are overwhelming when the song is right. Expressing it from the bottom of my heart instead of just dancing through it technically was what i would always do.But i realised Techniques were very important as well. I have ever imagined doing contemporary till i can cry on stage. That is something i want to feel.Especially after, when i saw a duet item and everyone backstage was tearing. I had goosebumps. I want to know how it feels like, dancing like that. I want to knw whats wrong and right with my modern. I know why i couldn let go, that was in the past and it hindered my dance but now, it's gone. I want to improve what i have now.But last night, i felt alot of pain. So i decided to just keep dancing even with the fever on. I just want to keep dancing to get it off my head. I felt alittle different in my movements, i was never so daring.

Contemporary is different from hiphop. I realise i can only truly express myself through contemporary. I dun mind feeling any pain that it gives me. Because i realise i love it. I love what it does to me. It is something beautiful that i will never let go. Split, i can do it by the end of this year. I am gonna be flexible in order to improve on my techniques.

" and i realised i have to dance, i needed to dance to get it off..."- ryan

i totally understand how that feels now..
I want to dance contemporary till i drop dead on the ground now with a high fever and my head is throbbing, i dun give a damn. I just wanna escape to find an answer.

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Kherington and Twitch SYTYCD

I finally realised how it feels like when a heart cringed..

and everything else that flowed with it..

Now, i totally understand why canoeing is so much fun. The fruitful labour of the day is ultimately when the sunsets, and you paddle towards your reflection against the ripples.. towards the sun. (: If i wasn't dancing, i guess canoeing would have been it.



People who stay near the reservoir, this is like world's beautiful cheap thrill hahas! But i guess staying near there doesn't give you the one- in a lifetime sunset feel! D:

(:




You saved me, found me, love me.
And yew, i will teach you everything from scratch. To make you a better man! Yeah my superman! hahas (:


HAHAS CUTE CUTE!!! :D

Our very first one.. Together.
And then our staircase to the honeymoon.

One step at a time , Baby. I have faith in us.

I love you baby.
You kissed me today. And i know you'r the one.
Now..
And i dont wanna ever think about our future. What matters most is now.
Cause thinking about "unforeseen departure "just gave me a heartache.

Just love me now with all our time. (:

To be continued.... (:
_____

Fries alert (: hahas! From koh koh's.

20/09/09

I love you

nothing with J. anniston can go wrong except maybe.. brad pitt hahas but this is a must catch (:

hahas i guess the closer ones would understand what i mean.

I am still trying to pull the strings from side to side to perform a perfect smile, one where the hearts truly flaunts and not fakish. hahas (: Haven't been smiling a real smile( showing teeth) for a long long long time ever since.. :(


I will try.

“It was always late at night, when everything and everyone else was quiet, that those voices would rise like ghosts, soft and haunting, filling your mind until sleep finally came.“

20 Inspiring Ways To Listen Differently To Your Life:

1. Listen to your life with your eyes closed
2. Listen to your words before you speak them
3. Listen to what you want - more of - in life
4. Listen to the sound of your breath, then relax it
5. Listen to your intuition. It’s always trying to grab your attention
6. Listen to what your body needs, right now. Put your thumbs in your ears, cover your eyes with your fingers and then listen
7. Listen thankfully to the sounds of nature
8. Listen for the wisdom in your problems
9. Listen more, talk less
10. Listen to your thoughts in slow motion. Are they bringing you closer to your dreams or taking you further away?
11. Listen to your life without the sound of technology and machines (no phone, TV, ipod etc)
12. Listen to silence
13. Listen to your favourite music
14. Listen, really listen to your children, family and friends
15. Listen to how many sounds are actually happening around you right now
16. Listen to the calming sounds of the ocean by cupping your hands over your ears and turning your awareness inwards
17. Listen to the sound of your favourite food cooking
18. Listen to your heart - What is it saying?
19. Listen to the sound of your feet when walking
20. Listen to the appreciation of your body after eating something healthy

(:

Simplicity?

Why can't i find it?

was it gone 8 years ago?
i really miss that protection and simple happy moments.

Everything is so different now. But i am doing fine. At least we are.

Fine does everything.

Lights out.


This is where i draw the line..

Is this yellow brick road going anywhere?
Am I missing my train? How am I getting there?
Don't know where it goes, but I know it's meant for me.
Yeah, am I gonna fall down if I miss a step?
Don't wanna live life chasing my regrets.
I know I'll always have my home to go back to.

I can't hold my breath forever,
but I know it's now or never.
Sick and tired of stormy weather,
lift this weight off me.

If I just breathe;
And I let go, 'cause there's no hold on me.
If I just breathe;
And I jump in, 'cause the water ain't that deep.
If I just breathe;
And I let go, 'cause there's no hold on me.
If I just breathe;
And I jump in, 'cause the water ain't that deep.

If I just breathe
(breathe, breathe, breathe)
If I just breathe
(breathe, breathe, breathe)

I pray and drive, no I'm not the first.
Don't know what's ahead, life is unrehearsed.
The curtain opens and I'm ready for the spotlight.

I can't hold my breath forever,
but I know it's now or never.
Sick and tired of stormy weather,
lift this weight off me.

If I just breathe;
And I let go, 'cause there's no hold on me.
If I just breathe;
And I jump in, 'cause the water ain't that deep.
If I just breathe;
And I let go, 'cause there's no hold on me.
If I just breathe;
And I jump in, 'cause the water ain't that deep.

Don't care how long it takes me.
Nothing's gonna break me down or clip my wings,
'cause I'll be standing tall, I'll rise above it all.
No stopping me (there's no stopping me).
There's no looking back, I finally found my pack;
And all I have to do is not forget.

If I just breathe;
And I let go, 'cause there's no hold on me.
If I just breathe;
And I jump in, 'cause the water ain't that deep.
If I just breathe;
And I let go, 'cause there's no hold on me.
If I just breathe;
And I jump in, 'cause the water ain't that deep.

If I just breathe...

This post is dedicated to a certain someone called "SY" (:

Hey girl, i know that this period of time, you chose to close up. I have no reasons why, although i really wish to ask however i know you needed your space. So i decided to just let you have time to think through stuff. For the past two years, i guess our friendship really grew stronger. You saw me through those changes and never failed to be there for me. I guess seeking protection from you was found for a period of time when i was broken. The period where i couldn have found anyone else who were willing to know what i was going through, you talked to me, comforted me in many ways like a friend should. So now, i feel as if i am useless. :(

I'm sorry. I know i am going through something that's pretty much the opposite of your situation, but i still want to be there for you. It's the first time you are closing up, that scares me because i really don't wanna lose you as my friend. You are flying off to bkk soon :( Ok take care and bon voyage. Whatever it is, i just want to tell you that ting is still here k. Should you ever need to talk about it, i'm here.

Please dont ever think that you are bursting my happy bubble, because it would mean nothing if i do not know what's going on with you. Tell me when you are ready. I love you! * hugs* Have an enjoyable trip! Maybe it came at a right time, for you to think through. When you come back, we can go to the airport like we always do and talk it out. See you k! (:

The HISTORY OF LOVE, NICOLE KRAUSS

An excerpt from the book The History of love, from the chapter The Age of Silence

The first language humans had was gestures. There was nothing primitive about this language that flowed from people’s hands, nothing we say now that could not be said in the endless array of movements possible with the fine bones of the fingers and wrists. The gestures were complex and subtle, involving a delicacy of motion that has since been lost completely.

During the Age of Silence, people communicated more, not less. Basic survival demanded that the hands were almost never still, and so it was only during sleep (and sometimes not even then) that people were not saying something or other. No distinction was made between the gestures of language and the gestures of life. The labor of building a house, say, or preparing a meal was no less an expression than making the sign for I love you or I feel serious. When a hand was used to shield one’s face when frightened by a loud noise something was being said, and when fingers were used to pick up what someone else had dropped something was being said; and even when the hands were at rest, that, too, was saying something. Naturally, there were misunderstandings. There were times when a finger might have been lifted to scratch a nose, and if casual eye contact was made with one’s lover just then, the lover might accidentally take it to be the gesture, not at all dissimilar, for Now I realize I was wrong to love you.

These mistakes were heartbreaking. And yet, because people knew how easily they could happen, because they didn’t go round with the illusion that they understood perfectly the things other people said, they were used to interrupting each other to ask if they’d understood correctly. Sometimes these misunderstandings were even desirable, since they gave people a reason to say, Forgive me, I was only scratching my nose. Of course I know I’ve always been right to love you. Because of the frequency of these mistakes, over time the gesture for asking forgiveness evolved into the simplest form. Just to open your palm was to say: Forgive me.

Aside from one exception, almost no record exists of this first language. The exception, on which all knowledge of the subject is based, is a collection of seventy-nine fossil gestures, prints of human hands frozen in midsentence and housed in a small museum in Buenos Aires. One holds the gesture for Sometimes when the rain, another for After all these years, another for Was I wrong to love you? They were found in Morocco in 1903 by an Argentine doctor named Antonio Alberto de Biedma. He was hiking in the High Atlas Mountains when he discovered the cave where the seventy-nine gestures were pressed into the shale. He studied them for years without getting any closer to understanding, until one day, already suffering the fever of the dysentery that would kill him, he suddenly found himself able to decipher the meanings of the delicate motions of fists and fingers trapped in stone. Soon afterwards he was taken to a hospital in Fez, and as he lay dying his hands moved like birds forming a thousand gestures, dormant all those years.

If at large gatherings or parties, or around people with whom you feel distant, your hands sometimes hang awkwardly at the ends of your arms – if you find yourself at a loss for what to do with them, overcome with sadness that comes when you recognize the foreignness of your own body – it’s because your hands remember a time when the division between mind and body, brain and heart, what’s inside and what’s outside, was so much less. It’s not that we’ve forgotten the language of gestures entirely. The habit of moving our hands while we speak is left over from it. Clapping, pointing, giving the thumbs-up, for example, is a way to remember how it feels to say nothing together. And at night, when it’s too dark to see, we find it necessary to gesture on each other’s bodies to make ourselves understood.

Sometimes the reason why i read, is to escape from my tiny little world and see others' at a different perspective. I have never realised that i love to read till recently i want to know how it is to understand someone elses' life. It made me realised by reading, i get to know what i want better in life. I learn to cherish whatever that's in front of me. It taught me patience chapters by chapters. Maybe you may see a book by its thickness and simply exclaim defeat however to me, it's a discovery. Something that you wouldn know if you do not flip the first page. The same goes with watching a movie. But now i realised, its not the book, its not the movie. It's the company. Nothing works if you are not around. But i am still willing to read on, so i can tell you patiently whatever that i've read, so i can teach you better and make you a better person because you deserve to. I have never realised that a rainy morning can be this..

Beautiful

40th Message

My life has been short but I have already learned quite a bit about love... Not through personal experience, but more through seeing others I know love. Some love and lose, some lose someone they might have loved and luckily some love each other forever. I think about that one or many loves constantly, always hoping I don't miss my chance. My fear of never finding that love has made me create an unattainable goal in my head: find the perfect guy you will find the perfect relationship and you will get the perfect life. That whole scenario is what I've been looking for.


But I have realized That kind of perfectness does not exist in a person. It exists in a connection, a relationship. That is what love is. Love is that person who isn't necessarily perfect, but it's perfect for you.

They say real love comes when you aren't searching for it. I used to think that it was absurd to say that because mostly everyone is searching for love; and many do find it. But of all those people I know, who I've watched love, though it may not have lasted forever, I've realized one thing. They all loved. There isn't a person I know who could end their life saying they haven't loved. The moment I realized that was the moment I stopped searching. I stopped searching for that perfect guy, for that perfect relationship, for that perfect life.

I've never been in love. But I am waiting for it. No longer searching. Waiting..

because I know it will come.

Lelove
______________________________

And you, you made me realised i love every imperfection about you.
The way i look at you and you look at me, our eye contacts that you shun away from and then catches it back, our :" what?!" at the same time cause we realised it was an awkward silence but laugh amusingly at ourselves,the way you cut my food into smaller pieces making it easier for me to eat, the way your hand fits mine, the way you stroke my thumb made me felt loved. The way you put your arms around me and listen to the songs during our bus trip makes me feel like time came to a standstill at that very second. That nothing could go wrong, when you are near me. The way your mind is processing a thousand and one things and not saying it to me, but i will look sheepishly at you knowing that you are thinking about us, about your plans for us. The way you had no idea how to bid goodbye to me, but missed me the moment i'm gone makes me love you every day a little more. Everyone wants us to take it slow, to me, my heart beats faster. But, i know we are going to be together. My silly boy, you have so much commitments on hand, but i want you to know, i'm waiting for you. This sunday, you can do it alright! Feel the music and you will be on the top of the world for a whole 3 minutes plus, and i will be offstage cheering for you silently when everyone screams your name. I love you.

 No 23. Holding Hands with Someone You Love




too much tweets for a day at twitter.. maybe everyone has alot to say to the other.. (: So sweet

OVER CAPACITY.

(:

"Yesterday's scars on today kisses"


i want to be me again. I want to be someone that is worth it. I dont want to constantly have to protect myself. I want to fall down, feel hurt, risk being vulnerable. I dont want to have to be called heartless all the time. The truth is i'm not a robot, i am not a person of zero degrees. I want to learn how to take care of myself, i want to learn how to take care of others. I want to feel the bruises, the pain so i will learn to be strong again. I have lost that soul a long time ago. Time to find it back.

One step at a time. Like how i was at the GEMS period.

Your Scores:

Surroundings: 21
Behaviours: 20
Capabilities and Skills: 24
Values and Beliefs: 20
Identity:19
Purpose:20

It seems that while you are already very content with your day to day physical surroundings overall.
These may include: the places you frequent, the people you engage with regularly and the personal relationships you have – or don’t have.
You are one of those fortunate people who look at what’s happening in their day-to day lives and feel good about what they see hear and feel.
As you think about a typical day, week or month in your life and mentally go through it, consider if there are any small changes you could make now that would increase your current level of happiness even more.
Remember to keep focussing on the plus points in this area as they will reinforce your positive and that may help you in other areas of your life where things may not be quite so rosy

Your responses suggest that you have a great feeling of optimism about life, generally expecting things to go well and ensuring that you do the kind of things today that make you happy.
You seem to have recognised that happiness is often gained from finding time for things you enjoy doing rather than putting things off until tomorrow.
You might want to take time to consider if there are areas of your life that detract from your happiness.
Do you find yourself doing things you don’t enjoy? Be sure to maintain a healthy balance in tending towards optimism while checking out your hopes against reality.

Much happiness comes from growing and developing as a person and your answers suggest that the way you have managed your skills and capabilities to date is a source of pleasure and satisfaction for you.
You are likely to be very aware of the full range of your talents and you work actively to develop them. However you are not complacent and you are likely to continue to love learning new things and to enjoy the challenge of increasing your skill level in many different areas,
In order to make the most of this source of happiness, you might consider if there are any creative ways to develop yourself even further.
Ask yourself what other hidden talents you could have that could give you even more satisfaction both now and in the future.

In general you have a well developed sense of what is important to you personally. You know that you are important and you pay attention to what you value and believe in.
Happiness comes from being true to yourself and knowing what matters to you. You are unlikely to allow other people’s agendas to over rule your own and you know how to stay focussed on your personal goals. You are likely to feel a strong sense of motivation as you know what you want.
While this is a vital part of personal happiness, check that you have not disregarded the needs of others. A delicate balance needs to be maintained in relationships to ensure that your happiness is not paid for by others.

You seem to know exactly who you are, accepting and valuing yourself so that you can realise your true potential. This certainty about who you are will allow you to pursue what really matters to you. You are likely to be able to identify and remove obstacles from your path,
sticking true to what really matters to you. Your score reflects your knowledge of who you are choosing to be at this time. Happiness springs from self knowledge, accepting yourself for who you with all of your gifts as well as your imperfections.

Happy people have a strong sense of purpose and you seem to know what it is that you are doing and where you are going. You know what gives your life meaning and you are content in the knowledge that you are making a difference in the areas that are important to you.
You know the contribution that you are making and you feel worthwhile.


Interesting. Wanna know yours? http://www.switchtosuccess.co.uk/Happiness.html (:

You want to know why nice guys finish last? It’s because they aren’t willing to take a chance, they’re too tied to their rules. They see their girl at her most vulnerable moment, and instead of doing what they perceive as a dick move, they put their arms around her and they hold her. They listen to her weep and they don’t take control of the situation. She’s too precious to cut off. Let her weep."-Le love


Omg sweet. (: hahas

and sometimes, i really wished i had a soulmate. Someone who would understand, who would not shun away from my flaws that reflects from my inner being. Someone who would shelter me, and tell me everything is gonna be ok, like how i've been dealing with self-protection all this while. You can be a friend, you can be my lover, you can be anyone. You just have to want to know much more, and i am willing to let you in. I am not afraid of you. I am afraid of myself. I am afraid to share the other real side of me that i have never shown. But if you want to know, you can hurt me with it. But if you want to know, i can show you my world.- Leycialy

I'm flying to Korea on the 29th!! <3 CONFIRMED So eggcited hahas!

Ok been falling sick this whole week. Immune system's really going down. Abit of an update for you (:

This whole week been going alot of open classes. One was Bryan's last class at Swu. Learned that going across the floor in Jazz terms requires respect. I agree and felt guilty for not finishing with the combination. From one end to the other room, if you are going to do a set of routine, you have to finish it. Ok , got it, no more excuses.From now on, when ryan has combination across the studio, like 28 cineads or something, i will complete them till the very end even if im not sure.its called,"respect".

Then,Kate's and Gin's LA, and Ryan's lyrical. Sheesh. Have no idea why i am occupying every single schedule slot in my organizer. I guess being busy, makes me happy. I like having commitments, maybe because it's habitual? Its tiring yet satisfying.(;

Saturday's training was awesome. I love the choreo. And about coming out with your own individuality, it's about time too. My style? I really wonder what defines me. I have to find it and i will. (: Gin never fails to inspire.


And for the very first time, i had to DRAG BTP across the ice. Bet you had alot of fun right? :D hahahhas like WHEESH AND YOU CAN FEEL THE COLD AIR. Like i've said," if you are scared of gliding alittle forward because you will fall, then you will never know how's it like to really skate" The hidden meaning behind it, i guess you should know. So i'm behind supporting you when you fall k (: hahahs although yeap, seriously your ice skating CMI. :\
It was FUN though having heart to heart talks while ice skating. A total different experience. We can have these talks on the plane to korea and in the hotel room every night. (:

Today, awesome class, awesome aura, awesome KEONE AND MARIEL. omg, like i was only 5 feet away from him dancing. Every alignment, every beat, i can feel he's amplifying the music with his moves. Dope (: And to Terence and Ken's SWAGG OUT, it was a great experience. Taught me alot and i will start to communicate with my body more. Learn to know it, feel it and explore.

And you, i have so much to tell you but it cant be written here. (: You know and i know it. And the rest doesnt matter. Take care, i believe you will shine on stage.

Till then, see you! (:

I was sitting on the bench outside of work one day trying to fix my make up. An elderly man walked passed me with his groceries heading towards his car in the huge Walmart parking lot. He then returned back a minute or so later to tell me "you're beautiful without all that stuff, and you don't need it." Groceries still in hand. GMH


A few months ago my ultra-conservative family found out that I am gay. My mom called me on the phone telling me that my aunt wanted to talk to me. I sat alone outside ready to begin breaking down as I dialed her number. She answered and said but three words. "I love you." Nothing meant more to me. Her understanding GMH.

FYI, FML Doesnt exist that much if you keep having GMH ( Gives me Hope) Moments .

Closely related, everything is just as what i want it to be. It's raining heavily here, and my fever ain't subsiding. Cramps , i hate it. But still being as stubborn as i am, going to head down to teach and then LA hip hop with kate then int jazz with filomar.

I guess only dancing keeps my head off the things that keep whirling around my mind.
I can't help but think, and i don't wanna occupy all my thoughts mentally. I need to do it physically, and by saying that, i'm going to tire myself out by the end of today.

Have a rainy afternoon, because today it's really really blackout for this little city.And with that saying, shinigami, i hope your plane don't get caught in the rain. Fly safe, cause im hearing thunder already.

Fever please go away. I can't take this any longer. Drowsy much.

"This is for the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don’t give it up on the first date, who don’t want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they’ve heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren’t perfect and that the guys they’re interested in aren’t either. And lastly, this is for the girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, and who are seeking to find that happiness."

Nice (: hahas! I like randoming around shops and then catch a phrase of lyrics that i hear from the song that's playing.

It becomes very sensitive when i hear a good one.
Today this one played during warm ups for modern training. Serene and calm.

Goodnight and turn out the city lights..

(: just in case i have short term memory loss again. I wanna remember that it wasn't a dream.