dog tagged

last night i dreamt that i crashed with my bike :( TMD

happy cause eh i finally got my vesper..

sad cause i was covered with blood and we were just talking about it seconds ago at bugis national library with dnjh.

HAHA

anw i really had a great talk, AH CHEW papaya fungus hashima and sesame paste, one good hour bus ride to sort my thoughts out

thanks my dope buddy. :>

because its sandra bullock material..

go watch this and you will get what i mean.

"When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could"

love for Vesper

Pudding~

this really really is damn sweet and cute :D haha and totally made my day better!! watch watch! :3

Macaroons, Fruit tarts, Projs

well.. only the projs were surreal..

the rest are just the eye feasting..nevertheless.. i really cant wait for tuesday :3

like finally (: ( sy and auddy!!!)

lousy

last week, i had this little random thought that surfaced.. wanted it badly to come true..

i wanted to badly fall sick and seriously damn ill those kind. > the best excuse to rest

been wondering why these few months, i have been enduring it pretty well..

oh and then suddenly the next day after having this thought,

my wish came true.

currently temperature check > 38.6.. my whole bin is filled with kleenex

tomorrow got club interview

then got facilities submission

then got facilities presentation

then got
then got...


then..


ahhh
i can't think anymore like literally every sentence i type in my report, i cant stop sneezing.
the irony is im doing on indoor air quality.

i really wished the IAQ here is so much better that my damn flu would go away.

3 days already? walao. longest ever can? :(


my nose damn red, reminds me of the pressure point you press when you can't control your emotions. HAHA :D

i could have cuddled in my blankets to slumber.. but no.. report REEEEPPOOORRRT.

OK BYE :(

bad timing

i dreamt that at the middle of the night, i kept coughing non stop, my nose were blocked from a really terrible flu and so were my ears..

only to wake up this morning realising its true, when i can't even hear my voice. :( wa thanks.

all these has gotta stop.

im really damn tired already.
:(

"Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak; Sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."

its like im getting used to it already..

im so not dependable

ok i gotta find back that strong girl that nothing in this crumbling piece of earth is gonna bring me down.

the one person in the past that differentiates

im going to find her back.

things been pretty bad this week, like fcking bad.

1. lost my thumbdrive with all my reports inside and the next day is the god damn interview
2.hotmail just zhua stun on me with javascript i cant retrieve the draft copies
3. its like my best was never enough even when i have already placed my 101%
4. once again, i got to see her true colours -_- like as if, she is really a know it all.spoiled my day, my mood and everything else. oh man, i really wish you luck in your bleak future.
5. heat rash is back
6. im officially moving house, like i dont even have a say in this. what's the point? i dont see it.
7. thought destination tutorial was at 12, but nope it was at 11. YEAH !! (Y)
7. - ( dont feel like talking bout it at all)

nevertheless, the two little miniature pups are feeding well ( one's white and the other has the same distinctive stripe at the back as his dad's)

and i officially hate school. period

or its either im jet lagged or something, i just threw everything aside one day, didn attend lessons and skipped the monday blues this week but the day gotten worse at night.

and another thing?
i officially hate raining days too.

right now, nothing bothers me at all. just gotta sleep it away and everything by dawn is gonna be ok.

i feel so god damn it aimless.
need to hunt for one.

im stronger when i feed on an aim.

shall find my prey now.

bye

everything should be jet-lagged

"when there are no memories, nothing will hurt that much"

jang guen suk <3

HE'S LIKE THE HOTTEST THING.OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG (:
im like on level 12 now! so sweeeeet

everyone, go watch this k drama, you'r beautiful.
jang guen suk is like the new love <3

Contemporary is so beautiful at temporary spin moments

To all the ones i care for..

"I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you'll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you'll make something that didn't exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind."

i dislike heat rashes

I absolutely dislike heat rashes :( and i just break into a bout of it.

but otherwise, today im generally happy!!!

(:

shall keep this little secret to myself.

oh and the hamsters are growing really healthy

sometimes i will actually feel like an idiot when the babies get stuck in a fur cotton ball or under the mom's thick white fluffy ass, its like i can feel the claustrophobia.

then again, i will tell myself, hamsters dont think like humans.

-_-

aye.. i feel so worried at night, that the next morning i will see 6 dead bodies again :<

yes it was tragic and dampen my spirits for that day, but i guess every setback in life teaches you something??

ok, i really need to go nurse my rashes by not being stingy to sleep anymore. like i have a choice :(

ok tomorrow will be better day!! weee :>


finally i can sit down and have a proper dinner with my family.
steamboat steamboat

but no seafood :( how sad is that?

1) When someone lies to you, it teaches you that things are not always what they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know what is in their hearts. Remove your own masks to let people know who you really are.

2) When someone steals from you it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have. You never know when you might lose it. Never take your friends or family for granted, because today and sometimes only this very moment is the only guarantee you may have.

3) When someone inflicts injury upon you, it teaches you that the human state is a very fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best as you can, it’s the one thing that you are sure to have forever.

4) When someone mocks you, it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, do not judge them by how they look or act, instead base it on the contents of what is in their hearts.

5)When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that the person will love you back. But don’t turn your back on love, because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings you will make up for all of your past hurts. Times a thousand fold.

6)When someone holds a grudge against you, it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is often the most difficult and painful of life’s experiences, but it is also the most courageous thing a person can do.

7) When a loved one is unfaithful to you, it teaches you that resisting temptation is man's greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptations. By doing so, you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.

8) When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about your success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.

9) When someone ridicules you, it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.

10) When someone loves us, it teaches us love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness, acceptance, and all of these can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.

11) When you enter someone's life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, consider what your lesson will be. Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality? When you die, will your life have resulted in more loving or more hurting? More comfort or more pain? More joy or more sadness? Each one of us has the power over the balance of the love in the world. Use it wisely!

"you, me and time can co-exist.."

when i was young, i remembered i used to think that shadows are actually imaginary friends that came to tell you about secrets..

and i would always chase after to find out what it was about.

but i guess when you grow up, nobody ever took notice the little things that we used to do when we were young.

i wanna jump on puddles of rain water
make birds shadows
laugh myself silly

with the right person


that aside of my random thoughts (:

destination is down. so were spa, gaming,cruise, club.

now FACILITIES!!!! -_-

gonna chiong finish this one

what's left???

20 Jan- Cruise Business Interview
22 jan- Club Management - Interview
18-22 jan - Spa and wellness management - Proj Interview
25 Jan- Facitlities Management Project Submission

then comes exams ( that would definitely be the period to camp at the terminal who wanna camp with meeeeee?? :>)

cant wait for sundae!! (:


"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder ever time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

indeed (:

at least i thought that i knew, but now i realised that i havent for a really long time.

Damned

the first fuck graphic that is adorable.

11 jan Club Management Project Submission
15 jan- Destination and Planning and Development Project Submission
11-15 jan- introduction to gaming operations Group Presentations
15 jan- Destination and Planning and Development Project Reflection (Individual)
20 Jan- Cruise Business Interview
22 jan- Club Management - Interview
18-22 jan - Spa and wellness management - Proj Interview
25 Jan- Facitlities Management Project Submission

i want to meet up with :

sy, auddball on the 26th after submission
dnjh for tauhuay at our lao di fang or just chill and talk
tanu for moovies/ shopping and catch up or we could pub and drink apple shooters.
samm, if you are still alive :< we can go butter!



i miss you guys like a damn loadz.
sorry sy,for the missed calls, for the missed texts, for the unanswered concerns.
will tell you everything when i see you.

cherish or regret

truth is, one will never know what they have lost, till they really lose it.


more often than not, you exchange glances, cross paths with a certain someone, believing that to a certain extent, if you take a second look, either one of you would strike a conversation and just like this, something more often than ordinary happens.

however, in a few occasional grey areas, though a possibility for friendship was there for you to partake, you didn't. You left it hanging there, and everything felt like an illusion.

it's like a dream, or someone who called you at 4 am in the morning and when you eventually wakes up, it all seems untrue.

but certain situations, are friends that you thought you could have shared everything with, turns out, you were wrong. You take a glance at them, and the second time you take another look, you realised everything has changed.
and you no longer wish to make "extraordinary" happen.

i have came to my decision last night.
and i guess nothing is going to change it within such short months to come.
im going to be a selfish/less bitch ( sorry) by doing so. but its going to be worth it.
how many times in your life can one erase all memories and restart a new life?
not many
packed "feelings" and i guess im ready to leave when the time is right.

if you want me to stay, show it to me.

"i want my hellos to be the ones received and my goodbye's hugs genuinely given"

not .like.this


i miss you girls.

For No One

Your day breaks, your mind aches,
You find that all her words of kindness linger on,
When she no longer needs you.

She wakes up, she makes up,
She takes her time and doesn’t feel she has to hurry,
She no longer needs you.

And in her eyes you see nothing,
No sign of love behind the tears cried for no one,
A love that should have lasted years.

You want her, you need her,
And yet you don’t believe her,
When she says her love is dead,
You think she needs you.

And in her eyes you see nothing,
No sign of love behind the tears cried for no one,
A love that should have lasted years.

You stay home, she goes out,
She says that long ago she knew someone but now,
He’s gone, she doesn’t need him.

Your day breaks, your mind aches,
There will be times when all the things she said will fill her head,
You won’t forget her.

And in her eyes you see nothing,
No sign of love behind the tears cried for no one,
A love that should have lasted years.

2009 taught me this

one day i can feel like its so overwhelming, the next day, i feel nothing for anything. So today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow, and yesterday let's not dwell over it anymore.
Change where ever you go.
nothing is ever constant.
feelings, sayings, doings.

and say hi to 2010 that hasn't change this to me at all, not one bit for the first week.
i still prefer to forget whatever that happened a day ago and focus on the "todays" as time is a tricky male chauvinist pig.

i dont wanna try so hard for anything.
i just wanna give my best to those that needs it.
these few days has been hell.

.

"its really important when i get the concern i need at the right time, when and where i need it the most..."

"puffy" eyes are a soon to be fashion statement"

this is the coolest console -ing sentence ever said by far to me when im crying.

thks doodle :>


i realised that the truth is you can't be there for everyone, but being there for the ones you chose makes the person feels better because you are the few that the person decides to make you feel alot better.
i really don't buy it, when concerns are shared evenly.
to me that's not concern at all.

yes, i don't really know who i am anymore.

"sometimes i feel that i have made the wrong choices, and looking at them makes me realised that its a little too late for anything.. just like concerns that came a little too late. The feeling's about the same."

and likewise, sometimes telling white lies are able to solve everything

so why not?

"i was afraid of taking pictures, because pictures tell a thousand words and these thousand words slowly intrudes into my memories like an unknowing subtle invasion. As time goes by, as they accumulates, what's left at the end are photographs that has no meanings when "till death do us part" dies.."

tada ta ta tada ta ta

and probably the best ever..

im so black all over. i can't rid it.

i guess i should stop trying. tons on my mind, but i will resolve them to bloody lies.
it has boil down to this point where i dont even blink when i lie. nicee

blood today on my fingers and decided to just let it dry, its like watching your fav colour come to life

there weren many pictures, but this will suffice.

you make me feel beautiful not all the time but at the best ones.