Friday, August 29, 2008

All the "first times" in the world makes one afraid.But slowly as we adapt, we become more brave and take risks.I'm crossing over to the other side.A little afraid but i know i can make it.But i have lost a little of my own principles that i stay rooted last time.Don't worry i will change back to who i am.I know i detest the person i am now.

Last night caught this with dr:
Gory > not really , Blood> not a lot , Sick> Very , Thrill> Definitely







Lest you haven't i consider you should watch the trailer first...Its sick when i wanted that motherfucker that killed his wife to die." Shoot him just shoot him"..Hate him.I bet you would too.Two favourite lines of the movie:" You want a monster you get one" and " nobody fucks with my car " hahahs :D

Thursday, August 28, 2008






The last time i remembered my hair was stenched with the smell of smoke was at Zouk.Last night,it smelled like heaven.Probably because we all know the heavy layer of luminous grey cloud that surrounded each and every one of us yesterday has fade away.Screw the muggings and the books, yesterday pubbing was awesome. Glasses of beer, Dark secrets and ***** ***** made was the ultimate (: I swear they fucking noobs have no idea.hahas _|_ But as said, what remains in the pub stays there.A good advice.Steamboat is like the best dinner you guys should have after the exams.Cindy,Adam and i headed for some steamboat yesterday.We totally ate like nobody business :x Cindy , you totally pawn the cockles at the shop lurh (: .Followed by some Ah chew dessert opposite the lane.Mango sago is dope.I 'm gonna bring you to go eat it dr hahahs (: Slept like a log.. and here i am half awaken by my overly-excited mother who just tried out her new tongs on her hair. At the same time, savouring every minute of the holidays.Its way beyond good~ I have so much things to do,Skinny dipping with Cindy and Adam on Monday :x extensions at Wednesday, (Work at F1 Ritz Carlton i can't wait!!!!) and DANCE and My JP SAN PEDRO i LOVE YOU.xoxo

p/s so to speak, the gossips back haven't you heard? Dan that motherchucker!


Saturday, August 23, 2008


In the moonlight ever so bright shining on the pavement, a vivid silhouette accompanies the trail of tears left behind.Darkness falls and silence can devour once again the piercing screams at the back of her ears.The dagger pierced will always be retrieved,rubbing fresh salt to the wound a second time before the sun rises once again.Like a predator feasting on a prey, a heart broken is like a piece of meat thawed and chewed slowly in the mouth of a love cannibal.


Licking dripping blood off his knife whilst savoring his sweet victory, he hunts for more...


(speaking of which if cannibalism is one of your interest, you may wanna check out this article..horribly sick..thanks to Poon for sharing it like eons ago but decided to post it up now to share (:)
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Ok, i know whatever i've written above is disturbing( well you know the stress urh exams period, yeah you get it) hahas but what's more disturbing is the pile of accounting notes on my table.Accompanied is a thick layer of dust just like a piece of ancient monument, that believe me..It triggers me to puke the moment i open it.



Monday, August 18, 2008


" If all difficulties were known at the outset of a long journey, most of us would never start out at all.."

suddenly i feel lost,emptied and i have no idea who or where or how i should be now..
I know we shouldn't have high expectations of the most beautiful things that happen in our lives. But i just can't help to.Disappointment just always comes round the corner.



Sunday, August 17, 2008



Gloria Gloria Js' 8 hours straight mugging to the core or the mantel of my brains.Have you ever wondered what you would be doing now if you weren't studying or cramming the thick pile of lecture notes containing small midget fonts in front of your eyes?

A few came up in my mind:

1) I would be dancing my ass of right now whenever where ever because damn fcking shit i have not grooved to music for the motherfucking years.I want the sweat trickling down my neckline and down my spine.
2) I would most likely be at Honolulu now sipping off martini glasses containing "what-nots" slings.Getting that Tann i would never achieve because well i'm destined to be the snow white,bitches.hahas ok i'm kidding.
3) I would go to the Olympics and do that triple jump or 10000m long-d run and pawnz DIBABA from Ethiopia~
4) I would bungee jump off the Grand Canyon.
5) I would date hot Rome Boys in Italy, well you get what you wish for when you throw the dime.
6) I would fly to Japan now and train under the Wrecking Crew Orchestra.
7) I want shopping like theres no tomorrow with Lady Godiva and Faustino version 5 at my bedside the moment i retreat.
8) I would fly anywhere that has the best jajabu( i don't even know if it exist) spa therapy.Well, spa management in sem 3.2 will enlighten me.
9) I would date Phelps for his excellent breast strokes.
10) I would camouflage myself as a cave woman and immerse in the "hooga-chaga" culture of the Africans.


Yes, anything beats studying in a pressurizing area for freaking 8 hours facing papers that says leisure as a state of mind.Yea frikking hell, i'm having leisure (studying) as a state of mind right now.The paper is mocking me. _|_


P.s. On a lighter note, the Olympics is really inspiring.Especially the running aspiration i've given up for dancing.The passion once lit was never dimmed.Holidays, i'm game for running 10km at the stadium,swimming 10 laps down the pool at my block.100 skipping everyday to keep fit (: "Actions speak louder than words" keep chanting maybe it will work...


"Maybe we could have a gig, and i could be your j rock singer..how nice would that be.I would scream an octave just for you."


I would hear the octave if its coming from you only...

Wednesday, August 13, 2008


Half a year ago, i wished or had a crush on this one particular dancer who took my breath away by just watching his dance video and how i wished that one day he would just come have a workshop in Singapore.Half a year later, my wish bout to come true.I CAN'T WAIT.I really can't.To be taught by him, is one of my greatest wishes ever since my dance journey.And especially since it's two days before my birthday.Please let this birthday wish come true please! I don't even want a cake or anything.I just want my JP San Pedro workshop ((:

P.s. DR!! go with me??? but the moolah is expensive tsk tsk ):



Tuesday, August 12, 2008



Holey Moley
I conquered ATTRACTIONS! LIKE THE WHOLE BOOK OF IT.*HEHE*
Aye but now i'm a walking zombie.
TSK starbucks and its calories counter but white mocha frapp uhmmm
STUDYING PARTNERS= productive ((:
CMON, i still think we should invest in the one and only one-of its- kind ANG KOR WAT
Resort OPT here i come.AND SHOO accountings >:/ Makes me cranky to the milky way.
OH MY MAMA! I need to fix a nerd specs and a milk bottle of caffeine before burning the mid-night oil tsktsk (:

HOLIDAYS~

*typed in a delirious state of mind,should you not understand, please refrain from thinking that you are equally insane*
NERD CORE \m/



P.S.: I MISSED MODERN :( due to a fcking bad headache.Now i feel fat *SULKS* Fck the exams

Saturday, August 9, 2008





should i or should i not?

So tempted to.Maybe just maybe..
2 am in the morning, just can't sleep.
Insomia,i hope not :/

Adapting to changes is so difficult.Especially when you are suppose to curb with it alone.

Carolyn:" Let's go on a holiday!"

I can't help but to agree.I need one,to get out of this sucky country.Let's plan Let's plan! (:

I want the waters to take me deep so i can breathe the stress away.I miss diving so much.

Contemporary is beautiful only when mia michaels make it.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008


Hurry up, and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything, that you always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste, but you just can't touch


You wanna show the world
But no one knows your name yet
Who and when and where and how your gonna make it
You know you can, if you get the chance
In your face, the door keeps slamming
Now your feeling more and more frustrated
And your getting all kind of impatient
Waiting



"So wrong that it could have felt so right."





Sunday, August 3, 2008

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up the remaining space. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous ‘yes’.

The professor then produced two cans of beer from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the space between the sand particles. The students laughed.

Now, said the professor, as the laughter subsided, “I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. ”

“The golf balls are the important things - your family, your children, your health, your friends, your favourite passions - things that if everything else were lost, and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff.

“If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued, “there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take your partner out to dinner. Go out with friends. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the washing. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.”

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the beer represented.The professor smiled. “I’m glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of beers.”

Hope i've got my message across, the next time you think its such a pain to talk to your mum, your friends or your grandparents , think twice. They may not be there the moment you want to talk to them nicely.

The session at the terminals are always so carefree. You girls are the ones that i know will stick by me till the day on my wedding or when i grow old with white hair.I know we will.No matter how we have to go to school or continue with our diplomas on monday, we will be there for each other.You know we will even if there are so many unsolved issues.


and audd heres your wonderful video (: hahas seriously, its so optimistic even i can't stand it.




and heres mine (: i see your true colours~

Friday, August 1, 2008

Tonight the breeze is calm and blowing. Its serenity does not appease the deep howling it's trying to put a facade on.How true.Even the wind is lying.The smoke is thick.Wandering souls everywhere in the month of July.They do not scare me. I even felt like swimming away at 11pm hahas to relieve all my stress.Night swimming=awesome (:

Yesterday, went for Bryan's Wacking,Carol's and Yutaki's.It felt so GOOD. I swear to you it did.There were no people eye-ing at you, there were no restrictions.I was doing a genre that i love.Its just good.I felt so free.I think i should make that decision soon since i'm not myself every time i'm there.

I shall dance now without a mirror.I rely on it so much its bad.



This shall be the Last and Final to you:


I don't want friends to come and go. I really don't want to.Hence, we can always swallow our dignity to just say sorry when we are not in the wrong to make them stay. Thats just going against our principles.If you think that i do not care about you, you are wrong.What i'm so disappointed about is your immature thinkings. You don't reflect, you just based the situation that you are right.I'm not heartless, i'm just sick of you trying to say that i'm putting the blame on you when you don't even think about the whole situation.There's always two sides to an issue.You could have came up to me and tell me what's wrong, or you could have just walked away and destroy this friendship just because you want me to think what i did wrong myself, which apparently you chose the latter.I know that in a friendship,we should give and take, but apparently i don't want to do so for this one because you don't even respect what i've gotta say to you and just based your thinkings that you are the right one and i'm obviously the one at fault.So, if thats the case, you can go on continue thinking that you are right,seriously.Only true friends tell you straight to the point ok.I'm telling you now, you are really immature.You can take this criticism or just think why would i say that.Two sides of the issue, choose one.Btw using the word" abandon" is so childish . I can talk to the people i want, you can to if you are willing to try and stop having the perception that i have to stick by you throughout the whole lesson.I'm still with you but you are just too childish to think that i can't talk to others.Think before you act.I've always thought you were someone who have your own rightful thinkings but this situation proved me deeply wrong.

Till now, i'm still questioning myself, did i do something wrong that night by leaving you alone for a while to settle my costume issues, or did i neglect you when i talk to others? Did we not helped each other during warm ups?Why did you waked away without hearing what i've gotta say?Was i insensitive to your feelings especially since at that moment you needed someone because you just broke off with your bf?

I questioned myself all this time because i CARE.Did you?Or were you just waiting for me to come say sorry?