D for drug

its funny how you know.. people try to take advantage of you but still think that you are an easy push over all the time. Sometimes i feel like they can really get away with it, when im soft hearted but the thing is, im no push over. and this time, im affirmative that you have gotten yourself into deep waters. Even i cant save you anymore because i realised i'm actually done trying to be the nice person, done trying to piece the things up together. Especially at this period, i realise that i cant afford to be selfless anymore, im afraid my body literally cannot make it to the finishing line.. like literally..no joke..vomitted twice today, took some antacid pills and literally just had one meal today but cruise proj discussion was seriously productive. (: Happy that we created the " orthodox omen" .. Its some cool shit stuff, think we should sell the idea to some theme park, i would totally go for it.

time to change for the better, dont say ive not warn you.
im pretty sure you wouldn like the outcome if this goes on any further.

sometimes i really dont get it why i fcking still care, when people actually trample over my feelings, take advantage of my capabilities but i still do have a sense of empathy, standing in their shoes thinking " hey i guess she must have her reasons and..."

then when i look into the mirror, i realised..
no one is going to do the same for you

i decided to stop once and for all.

speaking of looking at the mirror,

as days go by, i see my colours fading...
its like im missing my "drug"