Today i learned something;

True friends are those that will be there for you even when you stumble and fall, when you dont get your chances, they wait or try to achieve it with you.

True friends are those that you know when you smile to them, you know its genuine, not those that last for a second then you feel like the other party is hiding something beneath that smirk.

True friends are those that know exactly how you feel when for a moment you felt like your dreams doesn't seem so far away or untouchable.

True friends are those that won't change even when distance and time can be such a bitch.

True friends will help you on your way, listen instead of speaking, offer you selflessly with their console in a different way.

True friends are those that share the same passion with you, even if they don't understand how much you love it. Or when they do, they want to be there feeling proud for you. Those that you know you can see in it in their eyes.

True friends won't leave you alone, lurch you for their boyfriends, or give you one simple sentence just to shut you off when you are lost.

True friends, you can feel it. We don't speak it.
I'm glad that beneath this competitive environment, i still have them.

You know who you are,i'm thankful that you guys have never given up on the way.

That means alot.

And lastly, Carolyn i miss you, Come back soon. You've gotta stand here with me to see how fake people can get nowadays. I know who my real friends are, dont even try sucker.

" If it's a tough road i must take,then i 'd say the tough gets going.."

Finally we settled down and caught up with each other My poon balloon!!!! :D hahas yi wei yi wei yi wei Miss you la (: The one thing about this march is that i'm thankful i caught up with people i havent heard from since eons before i head for well 5 MONTHS of hell.Initially it was suppose to be Marley and me then we decided we should just do the dishing and the bitching hahas D: no lurh hahas we like to nua, nuasters hahas :D so headed to frolick again ._. And Smokey hahas :D babe its time to kick the niccotine aye? Means alot if you can do it and i 'd be proud of you. Maybe ditch the niccotine and switch to cocaine? hahas ok you know am joking. I care ok so we better be in the same class so i can nag at you all over again which always fail then i have to inhale your 2nd hand. HEH D: not like i mind but YES. you should know what i hope you to do.

Then i met my DNJH bitch :D hahas no lurh, my dope buddy, we bloodied valentined. Then scandal scandal hahahas! jk D: hhaaas, thanks for lending me your shoulder when i just grabbed without permission because for all you know what's my weakness now. I absolutely fcking shit HATE GORE.Let me say this one more time: I love HORROR but not the GORY kind. And hell no bloody valentine was ALL GORE.choke sian. So after all those aixle in your face shit, i myself lost some blood. ._. Not gonna go into details. But DAMN IT. i hate to be cheated into a movie and this time i cheated myself in.

But anyhow thanks :D hahas If i were to list out my march and april for you, i think i might concuss and die on the spot right now. Let's just say, i'm going to immerse myself with the subtle silence of death first then think later. :D

Impresario tonight!


and urh..... i dunno what got into my head.. i did something out of the norm today.
It's not a mistake .I just hope i know what i'm into before i wrote my name down for it.

Settler's is the new fetch hahas (: Awesome much :D Thanks for sucha wonderful day E! I believe our long awaited goal will be achieved. Murphy's law..eeecoleslaw HAHAHS Mad Gab is sucha quirky game.

Stayovers and Slumdog! :D

Check out the eyebags !!! It's the mugging hahas D: whoah!

Dunno where i would be without both of you :D and those heart to heart talks ._. i really needed those advices gosh

Yunn ! hahas i give you one candid !

meeting DNJH later! My 3d bloody valentine D: HAHHAS (: yeah~


Sometimes when the pain starts leaking like you'r on a drip, who's to give you the courage to strap the needle off, so that you might as well flow your hearts out and stop concealing

I'm the one girl that most of you assume that i'm ok. Keep assuming.

前部ぉおわれでした。。。

As a matter of fact, i'm loving the scent of this freedom while it last.. (:

oh yes.. as if i've missed out on the wonders of appreciating a chick flick that sends butterflies fluttering.. I caught :" He's just not that into you" Yesterday. Unlike Badd, i'm actually going to tell you that i shed a tear at the last part when he finally proposes to her. Not gonna be a spoiler here so well, you've gotta catch it. I'm jolly well more than happy to watch it again and am gonna do it.


Oh yes.. i've changed my blogskin hahas (: so from now on, catch me while you can because this inner fickle instincts of mine are constantly changing..Am loving how i can type with such big entries now and play around with the fonts.

So during this whole mugging festive, i was indeed miggering as you can see...baking sugar cookies ._. when i'm not suppose to hahas :D but they taste awesome.

and these sweets are OMG... sold at DAISO super awesome milk strawberry hard candies with a soft centre!!!..Tasted like the ones i bought at HK D:

ok am gonna go sleep now.. update later :D 22 days to SIP, one month to GEM production..
gonna dance like nobody's business..

じゃまったね！

I really want this album ._.

ok save, time to save (:

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

ok i'm officially having a 12 chapters hangover..
most indefinitely, i will be hooding up at that orange dimmed lit, wooden oaked bench at the centre most, the heart of the library.

level 6 with Keiths, Suria, Harris, Badd and Fion makes the mugging much more at ease. (:

beep us, we are friendly bunch of retards for this whole week, dunno what we'r gonna be the next week, wont promise.

and yes,this earworm is kinda staying around for too long.. but its like on repeat everytime i'm studying.

i could chow down those chucked away scrumped notes for all due known, i will be smarter the day i head for war zone.

65% and above and there i will be truly impressed with my capabilities.

My morning jogs are so effing sacrificed. :/ No more. After all these, i will run the extra mile. like 3 hours straight jogging

IDCWTFYT, IWRTEM!


i killed a moth today by accident, aint no shit is gonna ease the guilt and remorse :( SUDDENLY
the word death becomes very sensitive to my ears

CRAVING ._.

"Double tall extra foam one raw cappucino... "

" there's only one person that can control my emotions, and that's me, no one else"

Muggggggggging Seeeaaasssoonn.. peopo! hahhas Yeah! Dnjh !!! Jiayou Buddy (: hahas I know you know we know you can stand my nonsense heh :D Had an awesome time today! More meetups!

oh and i dont like hearing something today.. its like you wanna know something just ask me directly man. Fcked up. Need to go through so many resources. Nvm, i seriously cant be bothered and i am who i am. Nothing is gonna change what i've decided.

oyasumi!!


16th..still going strong..sometimes i look up to the stars and wished you were the brightest one..tell me you are doing fine up there..because i'm learning to be. that day i tot that moth that stayed at my window pane was you. but it wasnt.

thank you Estee for being here for me, i'm sorry if i weren myself, if there were times i couldn controlled my tears, if there were times i just shut off my phone the whole day and times where i just wanna give up looking at the mirror when i dance because i'm not myself...

You were still here for me, when i needed someone..


So thank you from the bottom of my small small heart hahas (:

Happy Valentine's Everyone !

How do i even put it?

it's been a memorable 17 weeks.

Thanks for trading this elective with me. (:


it's been a tough period for me and i figured and i'm going to get over it, i will. So yes, i deleted all my entries.

Time to look forward

i'm gonna miss you definitely not because you are so far away above the heavens, but because i realise your blood always run in me.

두 번 다시 바람 피지마....

So hooked on this song( you are currently hearing it on my blog)... OMG (: hahas many things happened recently.. till i dont feel like blogging it because i feel that only some deserve to know. I know he's gone forever but he will still be in heavens watching over me like how he always did be it whether in japan or here.When my tears run dry, its time to move on. and i'm laughing my sorrows away..

oh happy happy me ha (:

Thanks, Estee for the notebook (: , you'r the only one that know how i gone through this whole week and i'm so glad i found you. I miss him, every now and then but he will never come back again. I will visit him soon. The only place where i can tell every single thing. When i flipped to the first page, i picked up the pen but i still couldn write anything :( sorry smiling hero, i just couldn. Defeats the purpose of you giving it to me. I think its not time yet.

Reality sure is harsh
I realised my smiles dont come free nowadays, but i'm not aloof k. :/ stupid keiths

RAH, time to sleep. If i can. HA (: Shall get tissues to ease.

GOODNIGHT WORLD, goodnight to you (:

거짓말한거 정말 싫지만
이번 한번만 용서해
다시 이런일없게 해줄래
이젠 나만 사랑해줄래
because not everything can be penned down..

うかび　あがる　こうかいおつきまとう　

ゆうつ　お　そっと　くもに　ながして

今　やさしい　風　ぉ　受けている。。

HUES

The heart's language is punctuated with shrill laughter that makes you want to weep with joy and sad tears that you smile at in spite of yourself.

The mind can only speak silence.

"But I want it. Give it to me, I want it, and I just cannot do without it." This is the Heart.

"Why?" This is the mind.

Conflict and harmony, in conflict, in harmony.