First day of operation at Top table and Skills Kitchen (:

For culinary, i was stationed at skills kitchen and i was a
SOUS CHEF
for a day.
Cooked pasta and seafood frittata.

SSM

I never believe myself that i will ever say this.
But i'm actually starting to like Mr Goh and his rantings. OMG

This week position for me is Bartender.
Mocktail of the day: Apple beer and the Classic fruit punch.

Everything went well today, except that i scalded myself uncountable times due to the steam wand and the espresso machine doesn't like me :/

I handled all coffee orders today. Proud of myself. But i screwed up the settings.
Oh, and today i made a cup of latte for Miss Mark and a cup of cappuccino for Mr Goh. (:

He was like :" woooomman... you sure this is how you do it? You sure ah?!"

Then he empty this brown sugar sachet on top of the layer of foam and with that classic smile

( the one with no eyes)

he told me:" Good, you know how to test for a cappuccino? Is that the sugar doesn't sink through the foam and you did well. (; "

OMG, the first time he praised me can???? I'm motivated next week already. Budden arh, i will be at stewarding. ( need lesser workload since next week stress level is x3)

The week after, i don't mind being the runner hahaahs!

"Chef!(: Fire main course for table 20"

lol and our runner did something really retarded today

w.c " Chef! fire dessert!"
Chef Jason : * takes all plates of dessert for every table and serve it right straight to his face*



Obviously he fired wrongly. forgot to say the table no.

LOL

All my juniors of lrm and htm, your turn will come.
Its till then will you know what i'm suffering now.

HAHHA

I missed TP RAWKS , missed hiphop training later and i'm so not going to miss modern tmrow.

Irritating assignments.

oh! and we made reservations already. Not telling you when but it's next week. We are going to tekan those having SSM on that day. =x

Gd luck (:


Btw if you guys are interested in dining at top table or Sugarloaf, you can call in for reservations already.
6780 6369
( only during school hours)
$12.50 for 3 course set meal ( Consider the quality of food you are getting, it's really cheap!)

and Sugarloaf is own price own pay.

Located at TCC.
Dresscode for Toptable : smart casual , no slippers!
Don't come on tuesdays! Anyday also can.
If not,I will screw your dishes.

Today while on my way home on the train, i witnessed this really heartwarming scene. I love these little scenes that bring you back to that nostalgic lane.I've witnessed it once before therefore it was a little nostalgic and little dejavu here and there. Intertwined emotions.

This little girl with her pink squeaky shoes was sitting on her mum's lap.At first, i was just listening to my music and sleeping as usual hahas but she caught my attention when she took out her 1 dollar mama shop star stickers (those that your nursery teacher give you when you do your homework) and started placing them on her mum's face.It was then i realised, she had one on her cheek, another on her sport shoes, one on her bag pack and everywhere, even on her water bottle.

Then the next thing i heard was,

Little girl :" Mummy mummy, can i have a real star on my birthday? "
Mummy says:" you are a real star yourself, you are mummy's little star. (: "

I was smiling while i closed my eyes and just sleep through the rest of the journey. It's so fuzzy and warm that i realised i really miss being loved and cared. Anyone. That feeling had faded away for a very long time. But even though she was just a young little girl, she made me felt touched in one way or another.Touched that i do still miss those feelings and my heart is not totally locked up yet. I have no idea why. (:

Made my day.


The song that feeds off all silence at night.

Floor the Love 2008

Let me start off with some overdue pics taken from yuri's blog (:

Out hideout , don't tell you where it is. Sessioning as usual but camwhoring most of the time.

When abang harris gets emo, he does funnyshit stuff like gymnastic in a HDB playground.-.-

Battle

I shall not deny that locking used to be just 55% to me whereas now, its a 70% interest in yearning to learn and further in terms of placing it in my future. (: why the sudden change?

FTL

The amount of dance talent i had seen last night was dope to the max.Locking. It's like what???! I was shouting all the time. Sorry Kevinn , i'm a loudhailer when i'm damn excited hahas, it's your misfortune to sit beside me.Elmo from the Taiwan entertainment show/band 棒棒糖 was there to compete in the locking section.

Chunky(Ian) with his partner battle against them. Elmo's partner is = Musicality= Dope dope dope dope. Wth? It's like how can he hit the beat so well and the best thing is that it comes. naturally. Freestylin= how to anticipate?? Respect for him man.All the way (: Elmo= Omg i love him. I love him,ok the way how i'm going to buy my safety shield now before all his pink cutesy camera blink blink girl fans are gonna show their fangs at me.Standing one whole row behind me screaming their lungs out. -.-

Hiphop section was omg. An an VS Ben for finals. HAHHAS. i was like whoah now the show has begun. (: Well, anan won. Her groove is inexplicable.Those who have gone for her lesson s should know. I'm in awe when i saw her do her solo freestlye. It's like total ownage. But during semi finals, i felt that the girl ( short hair) who compete against her, doing wacking. Total admiration. Synchro to the max urh. Tell me wacking synchro i die for you to see. I get a little ghetto here and there, like that style is so stagnant after a while then it gets boring to see. But no, her wacking was =whoah.

I guess it wasn't Ben's element when the song changed. Damn sadded when he lost for popping. Michael is dope seriously. I couldn't believe it. Well initially i really stay rooted for Ben to win. I have no idea why maybe because i prefer his style of popping. But Michael really really stepped it up. Nevertheless, he should be proud now since his students won the final battle. I'm happy for them, improved a whole lot since Wu zone.Special attention to Michael's partner. Why the fcking hell is his pop impact so HUGE? walau! walau! walau! He's like popping eyecandy. I can stay the whole day watching him pop. Fcking dope.4 the love? I dk but kevinn's eyecandy urh ? (: hahas omg my eyecandy also. If i'm les, i will go date them. But i'm unfortuantely NOT. hahas Her eyes give killer stares. The last stare and the pop was like, i can go up right straight to her and ask for her no. Unless Kevinn you want to go up first? lol

I found my eyecandy yesterday. Shit. Damn cute.Like the first time i saw him wearing the white bandanna, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ok (: hahas Anyway yesterday the hot guys metre was like = 7/10 hahs.TP cannot fight. I like a man who can lock and pop. So i was telling fion, my boyfriend has to be a locker/popper. CMON, you can wack, even better. hahas ok jk. (: Just for the fun of it after the whole adrenaline rush thing.

All in all, i really enjoyed the show.We headed down to HK cafe afterwards to eat. Nana's teh peng blended is dope.Then headed home alone. Recently, i've been doing alot of things alone. Including taking the mrt and buses even sitting alone in lecture halls makes me pay attention more. I should do this more often.I like to be alone for a while so there's no false pretense.But somehow, i love to be around my girls. Ok i'm weird like that. Anyway jj and jw, don't feel disappointed, feel that you have achieved something out of this and take the next step forward.Hope you like the cards we did for you guys.

I have jap later. Next week is killer, operation at top table starts, two project submission,Individual assignment,Art fest ,jap final intermediate 4 test and S.I.P briefing.I can sense the pills gonna be handy. But no, i should not cause the over dosage again.Guide me through next week, no broken shakers, glasses. Work as a bartender efficiently.

Pictures

我的眼睛糖..你真的很可爱 (:

Christmas is early this year. Who should i spent it with and how should i spent it? hmm

Yuri and nana (:

That was last night's moon. Captivating (:

我要一个男人不是一个男生.一个能让我有安全感,有想要和我分享他的一切.
特别是他是一个舞者. (:
都是我的眼睛糖害的错!哈哈

One thing that i'm really glad is, after watching this show, i didn felt demoralised.In fact, i felt even more inspired to overcome all hurdles and be on that floor one day doing the genre i do best.So in other wards i'm gonna help or push myself. If i want this badly, i'm going to manage my time, my health problems and juggle jap, studies and dance and i know i can do it.

Because i'm never gonna give up dancing. Nothing can make me.
It's a niche and a need.Not a want.


More videos? The next post. hahas


Bye

These few days have been terrible.The temperature gets so high, tears well up in my eyes. Sometimes, when i meet up with my girls, i feel that everything even time has come to a standstill.It's so difficult to make people understand what you'r going through hence i've given up that idea a long long time. But naively, i still wanna know out there if there's even someone who can totally understand you and not empathise your situation. They don't go through the pain, sweat, exhaustion and stress you handle with everyday so how do they know? It gets so tired to catch up sometimes but i always want to because i know these people are worth it.

"There's a reason why some people in the past do not make it to your future."

Hence i've gave up trying to keep people in my life. Those that are still around are those that i really cherish and understands me inside out.

Culinary and SSM is taking its toll on me. Students who have undergone these two modules would understand. Even now when i hear some engine students or business students saying :" i've got school at 9 to 4 ( with a kick ass 2 hours break) know??" Then i will be thinking, you've not gone through anything yet.Even to the extent of sometimes, i feel that once i've gone through all of these i will be able to withstand anything. Give me the shoutings, the accusations, the "breathe down your neck" intimidations and i still will succumb this stupid module.

This is the f-ing third time i cut my finger while doing knifeskills. F-ed up pairing knife.

I'm grounded. But i don't give a damn really. Its gets so empty sometimes, i feel like i have no home. I really want to recover from all these sickness but i need time and i have none of that. I did my culi practical test cooking the main course with a high fever, went through bartending at SSM with a terrible flu and a bad fever that does not subside. Being very stubborn, i went for reggae and i sweat while having that stupid fever and flu.

I think i deserve some scolding for not knowing how to take care of myself. But seriously, i don't care anymore.

Something that kept me thinking after Sunday

Sy :" Ting its not that the people around you are childish, it's just that you are too mature for them to understand."

" Don't reach to the extent that you feel numb with the pain."


No, i've reached that point already. I'm way pass it. I'm just waiting to handle what's next.

Even last night , when i was on the bus way home with the seniors Joey, Meichin and Serene. the issue bout maturity was brought up. The way you talk, handle things also play a part in your maturity level.

I never knew that. I seriously never knew that the way you talk shows how mature you are.

wow

I never see that coming, i guess i've undergone too much changes in a year that i don't even feel like i'm eighteen years old at all.

I need time to understand people around me. But sometimes, the one thing that makes me happy is that i do not feel the age gap when i hang out with my lockers (: Maybe because we are all of the same age ?(Flo, you are like 18 even though you are 19 (: )

The number doesn't seems to matter anymore, but the problem i guess lies in me.I've gone so far ahead, i didn't realize that there's no one there with me. They are all together at the back with the same mentality.How i wish i could turn back time and be someone who was so happy. But i guess, once you've taken a step forward or made a decision there's no turning back.

生病的我好难受。。。
没有人喜欢生病的小孩。。
打针好痛。。
吃药好辛苦。。
好丑。。


我好讨厌自己。

"Everyone's so good at making empty promises..."

Headed for practice this morning, thinking that everything will be alright so long as i took the painkillers and fever medicine and i will be fine.But no i had it on empty stomach with just a yoghurt bar and that's when things got worse.

One after another, and i vomited, feeling nauseous and the hives came back.It's so painful i had to constantly drench myself with cold water to ease down the rashes. The last thing i told myself that i would never do again is to leave a dance lesson half way thru just like that. It's like i'm dance-stupid.

Everything that happened today seems to be a dejavu since the last time, i showered with pain at another dance school.

Paralysed.

Fck seriously, like what is gong on with me.Stupid storeroom with the constant taunting :" someone just save me out of this shit".And thankfully, some really heard me.Harris, if you are seeing this. I know you knew something was wrong although i didn't said anything. Thanks for helping me out. You have no idea how much i appreciated what you guys did for me.I'm sorry if i caused inconvenience to you guys. (Suria, Rb, Eulene. Thanks)

Not been on medication since dreams concert.Like a minute , he's telling me you can dance freely without medication. The next minute , he 's taking it every bit away from me. I know my own body for godsakes alright.It won't tell me to rest unless i'm crippled. Trust my immune system and stop telling me i have to take those pills all over again.And yes i can't take penicillin , you retarded doc! How many times do i have to tell you?

I tried to hug myself to stop the shivering but i guess it's really time to rest.I've never felt so sick before. It's like even the taxi driver tells me :" Girl, don't cry la. I know you sick ar.Pale like a ghost.Go home and rest". I somehow appreciated his silence on my journey way home.The last thing i needed was a stupid inquisitive know -it -all taxi driver.

The worse thing is, reading jw's card and listening to the song he wrote for me really made me broke down and teared myself to sleep.No papa, it's not your fault. I love it! Best present ever given to me in 18 years of my life. I feel like singing with you!!

Yunn if you see this, please help me. I don't know what to do with this stupid sickness of mine. I really wanna call you but i guess everyone's busy with their own lives.

Aspirin pills, i'm back to eat you again.You dehydrate my body and causes splitting headaches. But no i'm still gonna fight you. It's a struggle that i'm gonna pull through.


I really feel that in this stupid space, there's no one you can trust. It's a dog-eat-dog kind of world.I might as well get eaten up for your benefit to get a higher grade.I abhor you people who thinks that making use of others will get you a level up the ladder.

Hey, you've lost something you know that?

Your conscience



I lost it once so i know, you won't go far.

Familiarity breeds contempt

Everything has a start and an end, but it's the memories that matters. (:

with that, this chapter shall come to a close.

你永远是我最熟悉的陌生人

Just a day after his birthday on November 4th, Big Bang member, T.O.P. was rushed to Chung-ang University Hospital this afternoon at 1 pm. Details are limited but what is known is that the 21 year had collapsed. Could the cause be exhaustion?



GAHHH wth seriously..T.O.P please get well soon :/ AND LIKE whurrrt it's a day after his birthday?!! Saddening news :( T.O.P :( Damn korean agencies who creates singing robots who malfunction and suffers from depression. Like i "thought" naively singing was suppose to be freedom.

Anyway, Liting's a good girl today (; The things i did while waiting for my fellow lovemates (for sessioning later) who are currently having their boring tutorials now:

1. Estee acoompanied me to this retarded warehouse outlet to get my safety shoes. I'm damn pissed off though by the fact that i got pawnzed by a lock. Details shall not be disclosed. Fcked up combination Hmmmmppppppppffff



2. I met some good old souls at the Redspot who offered their cash card for me to print the event management thick wholesome book. Those retarded KIASUS i swear. Stop borrowing both fest and events book k. Like wtf is wrong with you. Selfish souls.Ok maybe it's the sun that's getting to me but still, N.E.R.D.S . Unless you'r like a hot nerd then you are forgiven ! >:(




3. I've created that darn blog i should have created a week ago for fest individual assignment. The url's kinky: Karmasutras HAHAHHAHAS (: I'm doing an indian festival waddaya expect?


4. Today's fest and M.IC.E project meeting was productive. I love my groupmates se-ri-ous-ly. (: Really hope that we can win this and intern at slg altogether next sem.

Now, i can dance with peace later knowing that i did some shit loads of work.

Sessioning YEAH! (:

BTW IT'S 21 NOVEMBER OUTSIDE TP LIBRARY, 12:30pm.

Suppport artfest, support TPDE!

For now i leave you with BIG BANG's붉은 노을 MV

"One for my morning glory
Two for the early dew
Three for the man who will stand his round
And four for the love of you, me girl
Four for the love of you"

朝 顔
"Asagao"

The first time i was so attracted to this flower was when i got lost one day when i overslept on the bus. I walked my way out and i found this old abandoned house. Fenced and so broken i can't figure why it wasn't demolished. Then i saw something that amazed me. I stood there appreciating how these little vine creeping flowers twined around the fences.It was a beautiful sight. One that i felt these flowers beautified that damaged structure.

Then one day, someone told me that morning glories are weeds. They are the weakest flowers among the bushes but their perseverance to survive before dawn is spectating.Hence, the name. I got so fascinated, i asked if florists do provide such flowers and no they don't.

Because why?

They are not presentable, they are afterall weeds and never flowers.Somehow, i kept wondering why can't they be comparable with roses and carnations?

Maybe because they are afterall weeds that needs a vine to survive. They have no stems to support and like any other weeds,

vulnerable.

Somehow, if i were to choose one day. I would pick morning glories over roses anytime.

Maybe because i can relate to every bit of its survival.

Taken from Eulene's

哈咯！
让我来教你怎样学习快乐。。。

首先，
生呼吸，
放轻松

然后，
举起你的双手摇一摇，
摇到外婆桥。。。

过了外婆桥后，
把你的左手放在你嘴唇，
右手比一个'YEAH'。

我想你先在一定脸青唇白。。。

因为。。。

我忘了告诉你生呼吸后，
要记得喜气－。－”。。。

学会了吗？
哈哈哈哈。。。。

by alson..

OMG seriously LOL!