除非我真的很_____ ,否则我不会哭.
只有一个唯一..
那就是
跳舞
Saturday, August 15, 2009
i got a thousand and one emotions racing through my brains. But one just got a stand still. It was " emptiness".
I am not miss contrary. I know why those tears came at that split second. I dont cry so easily unless it really hurts or it really trigger all my emotions like a rush.
Happy yet sad... is it cause, it doesnt matter anymore? To watch me? It means alot.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Ignorance- debuted on MTV Paramore
i dont know how long more i can take this... For a split second last night, i thought i lost myself there a little with sucha high temperature. Dozed off while bathing last night which made the flu worse. Should not be so stubborn.
Need to be healed.Even if not, i will still go up there and fight the battle.i will fight the battle with a high fever and a mental deranged state of self. Just hope i will not faint. Please dont faint.
Thanks fion for the chinese herbal drink,KM and estee's msg. VONIQUE let's do this !
One more Day
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Realised that I've not been placing my thoughts in this space as much as i used to. With the site ware crumbling and Mozilla being a total epic failure, i decided to keep a lot of things to myself.
Sometimes, i wished i could be a typical girl.One of the many topics we touched on during our train rides back home, none other than my bimbotic traveling partner.An ordinary girl who just shops whenever she likes, eat proper meals at specific time and gastric wouldn have been a problem. I never denied once that Dance had filled up my life. Sometimes, we see a glass as half filled or half empty? It's the latter. It's never ending pursuing.
That itself, refrains me from meeting up with my friends as much as i can. Who loves to wear baggy sweat pants and extra large t shirts to town? Eyes that are judgemental always lay themselves upon me. I've never once regret though. Never once regret pursuing something that's extraordinary. Never once regret the emptiness etched deeply from the lack of family time, the lack of my social life.
Maybe being a Cyborg, a robot, someone who have zero degrees for love will succeed in this area. Will learn to use their tears wisely, would cry only when it deserves to be. Would dance because you love to and then nothing else matters. But when you look back, who would be there for you?
This Saturday means alot to me. I guess only a few would understand. Especially why i even started dancing. Go Vonique, i know we have been practising really hard. We need to be in character. I have faith in us. I love those trainings i have with everyone of you.
i really wanna go to japan. I just wanna fly there right now, be at the seaside. Hearing those waves crashing, feet on soft wet sand and just fill that space with my thoughts.
This phrase got me thinking :" have you ever wondered why the word " hurt" has no ed?? "
Sometimes, i wished i could be a typical girl.One of the many topics we touched on during our train rides back home, none other than my bimbotic traveling partner.An ordinary girl who just shops whenever she likes, eat proper meals at specific time and gastric wouldn have been a problem. I never denied once that Dance had filled up my life. Sometimes, we see a glass as half filled or half empty? It's the latter. It's never ending pursuing.
That itself, refrains me from meeting up with my friends as much as i can. Who loves to wear baggy sweat pants and extra large t shirts to town? Eyes that are judgemental always lay themselves upon me. I've never once regret though. Never once regret pursuing something that's extraordinary. Never once regret the emptiness etched deeply from the lack of family time, the lack of my social life.
Maybe being a Cyborg, a robot, someone who have zero degrees for love will succeed in this area. Will learn to use their tears wisely, would cry only when it deserves to be. Would dance because you love to and then nothing else matters. But when you look back, who would be there for you?
This Saturday means alot to me. I guess only a few would understand. Especially why i even started dancing. Go Vonique, i know we have been practising really hard. We need to be in character. I have faith in us. I love those trainings i have with everyone of you.
i really wanna go to japan. I just wanna fly there right now, be at the seaside. Hearing those waves crashing, feet on soft wet sand and just fill that space with my thoughts.
This phrase got me thinking :" have you ever wondered why the word " hurt" has no ed?? "
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Great. Carolyn's going to INDO today, i am gonna miss her :( Come back fast k, thai was awesome only when it's with you!
Oh oh, this morning i heard this song by 郭静-知道. Seems nice! She sounds exactly like Angela at certain pitches. Time for me to really start venturing on my demo and then take the classes if of approval. Every single person i know of now is so determine to pick up driving. So i shall not dive in and join the rest. I shall learn something else instead. Driving can wait. My two feet do bring me far. Not to mention that much neglected portfolio of mine. Shopping, i need therapy and last episode of Gossip Girl was heartwarming. (:
Sometimes i must say i am thankful to have a person who is willing to go eat shaker fries and mc flurry with me when i was so damn angry and pissed off at some imbecile yesterday. Hearing those talks and things that i have not taken into consideration makes me feel so guilty. Sorry sy. I will start to ponder about it. Thanks though! Love much.
Ok off for some career fair with that Bimbotic girl and then it's the last outing with the OGLs.
Things with Suntec has been progressing. We need to find back what it takes to leave an impression throughout. It's a little off the railway track now but the train is gonna keep going, i am sure of it!
ps: i wonder how does it feel to have your own Cd and soundtracks playing in music stores, having your very own stage to sing in. Every single time, it gets to me.
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