if you want me to stay, show it to me.

"i want my hellos to be the ones received and my goodbye's hugs genuinely given"

not .like.this


i miss you girls.

For No One

Your day breaks, your mind aches,
You find that all her words of kindness linger on,
When she no longer needs you.

She wakes up, she makes up,
She takes her time and doesn’t feel she has to hurry,
She no longer needs you.

And in her eyes you see nothing,
No sign of love behind the tears cried for no one,
A love that should have lasted years.

You want her, you need her,
And yet you don’t believe her,
When she says her love is dead,
You think she needs you.

And in her eyes you see nothing,
No sign of love behind the tears cried for no one,
A love that should have lasted years.

You stay home, she goes out,
She says that long ago she knew someone but now,
He’s gone, she doesn’t need him.

Your day breaks, your mind aches,
There will be times when all the things she said will fill her head,
You won’t forget her.

And in her eyes you see nothing,
No sign of love behind the tears cried for no one,
A love that should have lasted years.

2009 taught me this

one day i can feel like its so overwhelming, the next day, i feel nothing for anything. So today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow, and yesterday let's not dwell over it anymore.
Change where ever you go.
nothing is ever constant.
feelings, sayings, doings.

and say hi to 2010 that hasn't change this to me at all, not one bit for the first week.
i still prefer to forget whatever that happened a day ago and focus on the "todays" as time is a tricky male chauvinist pig.

i dont wanna try so hard for anything.
i just wanna give my best to those that needs it.
these few days has been hell.

.

"its really important when i get the concern i need at the right time, when and where i need it the most..."

"puffy" eyes are a soon to be fashion statement"

this is the coolest console -ing sentence ever said by far to me when im crying.

thks doodle :>


i realised that the truth is you can't be there for everyone, but being there for the ones you chose makes the person feels better because you are the few that the person decides to make you feel alot better.
i really don't buy it, when concerns are shared evenly.
to me that's not concern at all.

yes, i don't really know who i am anymore.

"sometimes i feel that i have made the wrong choices, and looking at them makes me realised that its a little too late for anything.. just like concerns that came a little too late. The feeling's about the same."

and likewise, sometimes telling white lies are able to solve everything

so why not?

"i was afraid of taking pictures, because pictures tell a thousand words and these thousand words slowly intrudes into my memories like an unknowing subtle invasion. As time goes by, as they accumulates, what's left at the end are photographs that has no meanings when "till death do us part" dies.."

tada ta ta tada ta ta

and probably the best ever..

im so black all over. i can't rid it.

i guess i should stop trying. tons on my mind, but i will resolve them to bloody lies.
it has boil down to this point where i dont even blink when i lie. nicee

blood today on my fingers and decided to just let it dry, its like watching your fav colour come to life

there weren many pictures, but this will suffice.

you make me feel beautiful not all the time but at the best ones.