I was sitting on the bench outside of work one day trying to fix my make up. An elderly man walked passed me with his groceries heading towards his car in the huge Walmart parking lot. He then returned back a minute or so later to tell me "you're beautiful without all that stuff, and you don't need it." Groceries still in hand. GMH


A few months ago my ultra-conservative family found out that I am gay. My mom called me on the phone telling me that my aunt wanted to talk to me. I sat alone outside ready to begin breaking down as I dialed her number. She answered and said but three words. "I love you." Nothing meant more to me. Her understanding GMH.

FYI, FML Doesnt exist that much if you keep having GMH ( Gives me Hope) Moments .

Closely related, everything is just as what i want it to be. It's raining heavily here, and my fever ain't subsiding. Cramps , i hate it. But still being as stubborn as i am, going to head down to teach and then LA hip hop with kate then int jazz with filomar.

I guess only dancing keeps my head off the things that keep whirling around my mind.
I can't help but think, and i don't wanna occupy all my thoughts mentally. I need to do it physically, and by saying that, i'm going to tire myself out by the end of today.

Have a rainy afternoon, because today it's really really blackout for this little city.And with that saying, shinigami, i hope your plane don't get caught in the rain. Fly safe, cause im hearing thunder already.

Fever please go away. I can't take this any longer. Drowsy much.

"This is for the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don’t give it up on the first date, who don’t want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they’ve heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren’t perfect and that the guys they’re interested in aren’t either. And lastly, this is for the girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, and who are seeking to find that happiness."

Nice (: hahas! I like randoming around shops and then catch a phrase of lyrics that i hear from the song that's playing.

It becomes very sensitive when i hear a good one.
Today this one played during warm ups for modern training. Serene and calm.

Goodnight and turn out the city lights..

(: just in case i have short term memory loss again. I wanna remember that it wasn't a dream.

:( sad.. why??? i thought i was suppose to be very happy.


“ You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

- Bob Marley

ok really i hate moodswings. Goodnight.

Anyone who falls in love is searching for missing pieces of themselves. So anyone who’s in love gets sad when they think of their lover. It’s like stepping back inside a room you have fond memories of, one you haven’t seen in a long time. It’s just a natural feeling. You’re not the person who discovered that feeling, so don’t go trying to patent it, okay?

Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

and

The HISTORY OF LOVE, NICOLE KRAUSS

Maybe the first time you saw her you were ten. She was standing in the sun scratching her legs. Or tracing letters in the dirt with a stick. Her hair was being pulled. Or she was pulling someone’s hair. And a part of you was drawn to her, and a part of you resisted—wanting to ride off on your bicycle, kick a stone, remain uncomplicated. In the same breath you felt the strength of a man, and a self-pity that made you feel small and hurt. Part of you thought: Please don’t look at me. If you don’t, I can still turn away. And part of you thought: Look at me.



Probably the two best that i read today. Oh , i really really wanna read this book. But i so don't wanna buy it though.





If you guys have this please lend it to me, please?? :D

十二臣楼的感觉..就由与心中想说的话在这些气球..传达你身边. (:

It was a rainy night, so i took out one tree hill and rewatched one episode..hahas (:

Lucas: Because it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.

How true.. (sighs) I miss Vonique. I miss being able to just dance on stage and the rest of my worries and dreads just don't matter. But wait, everything is within my control. So Leycia, ガンバッテ !! (: The whole world can deny, can say no, can put me down, but i want to say " yes".

Bevin Mirskey: I know people think I'm stupid, but I'm not dumb. I just let you and the other girls have your way because that's how you need it to be. But I think Carl's right, pretty soon we're all going to graduate and I can start over. But it'll be harder for the people who need this place to make themselves feel special. People who use high school to build themselves up and then find out that the real world doesn't care so much about who you were in high school. People like you.

-One tree hill


ps: that was the second time i cried so hard on the phone, and over the same reason for over the years. As for the listener, i will let it go. I promise. That's bout it. Flying off to japan in a month time.