i want to feel that adrenaline rush again. Please let me.

Sometimes, these moments..

those worthy moments ive created..

i do wish i could share it with the one i love most..

looking back..i have shut myself out..from those who used to love me, who could have been the one standing right next to me..

then i question myself..

why am i waiting..

for the one

thats truly worth it?

is he really worth it?

or am i just making myself non-worthy of love.

Time will tell.

驳泥克

HAHAS... realised this photo is damn randon. TOPS"HOP"... hop as in hip hop?? (: Hee

It's been a crazy journey.. one that's still on going. I'm really thankful and counting my blessings.

Need to work super extreme hard this time. 2 more weeks.

not much to say because i believe no words can describe. hahas

" A picture tells a thousand words"..

ive got a whole collection. They have done most of what i have to say.

Just one more thing though...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH EULENE AND

LAVONE. LOVE YOU !!

i love my life, i love every second of it., no matter how crazy it is..

:" its worth it."

my photobucket is full, time to empty it hee (:

till the heats!!! JIAYOU BASIC INSTINCT, SAPPHIRE, APPENDIX D AND

VONIQUE!

Thanks for the sunflowers ! ( sy and jw)

除非我真的很_____ ,否则我不会哭.

只有一个唯一..

那就是

跳舞

i got a thousand and one emotions racing through my brains. But one just got a stand still. It was " emptiness".

I am not miss contrary. I know why those tears came at that split second. I dont cry so easily unless it really hurts or it really trigger all my emotions like a rush.

Happy yet sad... is it cause, it doesnt matter anymore? To watch me? It means alot.

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i dont know how long more i can take this... For a split second last night, i thought i lost myself there a little with sucha high temperature. Dozed off while bathing last night which made the flu worse. Should not be so stubborn.

Need to be healed.Even if not, i will still go up there and fight the battle.i will fight the battle with a high fever and a mental deranged state of self. Just hope i will not faint. Please dont faint.



Thanks fion for the chinese herbal drink,KM and estee's msg. VONIQUE let's do this !


One more Day

Yes.." an apple a day keeps the doctor away".. It's bullshit.... >:(


* SNEEZE* and wat? SUNTEC IS IN 2 DAYS. Fever now? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Realised that I've not been placing my thoughts in this space as much as i used to. With the site ware crumbling and Mozilla being a total epic failure, i decided to keep a lot of things to myself.

Sometimes, i wished i could be a typical girl.One of the many topics we touched on during our train rides back home, none other than my bimbotic traveling partner.An ordinary girl who just shops whenever she likes, eat proper meals at specific time and gastric wouldn have been a problem. I never denied once that Dance had filled up my life. Sometimes, we see a glass as half filled or half empty? It's the latter. It's never ending pursuing.
That itself, refrains me from meeting up with my friends as much as i can. Who loves to wear baggy sweat pants and extra large t shirts to town? Eyes that are judgemental always lay themselves upon me. I've never once regret though. Never once regret pursuing something that's extraordinary. Never once regret the emptiness etched deeply from the lack of family time, the lack of my social life.

Maybe being a Cyborg, a robot, someone who have zero degrees for love will succeed in this area. Will learn to use their tears wisely, would cry only when it deserves to be. Would dance because you love to and then nothing else matters. But when you look back, who would be there for you?


This Saturday means alot to me. I guess only a few would understand. Especially why i even started dancing. Go Vonique, i know we have been practising really hard. We need to be in character. I have faith in us. I love those trainings i have with everyone of you.

i really wanna go to japan. I just wanna fly there right now, be at the seaside. Hearing those waves crashing, feet on soft wet sand and just fill that space with my thoughts.



This phrase got me thinking :" have you ever wondered why the word " hurt" has no ed?? "

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MEE FYE FO! PORTFOLIO IS COMPLETED!!!!!!! (: SUNTEC SUNTEC SUNTEC!!

" You're neither friend nor foe"



Blogger is screwed up. Nevertheless, today i wanna post this. Because it means a lot to me and coincidentally something that meant much to me was choreographed,danced and taught by Ryan. So just watch this.( starts at 0.15s)









a robot just teared.