the turn at 0.34 killed it. Killed it.OMG ._.

This is damn satisfying.

Mariel martin in grey is dope shit

KEONE MADRID




omg, he ate all the beats.

MACHINE ._.

f-ing hot.

"Bitch, i'm not fickle"

Butterfactory [Raw] EMIX- 3 days ago... Screwdrivers and cranberry vodka ,B-girls that came across surprisingly.

Ikea- to search for the billboard to pin these memories- Pending, anyone wants to go IKKEEEEIA with leycia? :3

Haunting at Connecticut- 12 hours ago
Deep realization- one day and more to come in the future
MTV Groove 1- 27th July
Modern Exam- 5th August
cinead, double pirouettes, jumps; where's my silhouette? :(
Honey Bunches of Oats- 2 hours ago
Session at Katong- 6 hours later
Hong Kong- Thursday- Sunday


Whilst changing my bedsheets this morning, i realised that it applies the same to friendship. Every time we change to a fresh new sheet, it's gonna take a long while before having that smell of oneself lingering around in deep slumber. When you change it, that smell just doesn't exist. It's new, odourless and you have to re-adapt yourself to it. That just sucks...

and i guess the worse part is, you are the one doing the changing.

FREEDOM

all day long at home, packing my dusty room, skipping from one postcard to the other, browsing through my collection of songs, my sketches; seems like a really long time since i ever felt nostalgia this strong.


I am happy (: for now. I don't wanna ponder about my emotions for the next second. But at this minute, staring at this picture makes me smile.

It's not a picture to burn.


Packed that Dusty cobwebbed infested with silver fishes rickety Cupboard - 4 hours ago

Found a wind chime hidden under my closet and hanged it nicely so that i can hear it as i draw the curtains every time from now onwards- 2 hours ago

Discovered a whole series of encouragement cards and arranged them neatly in one huge brown paper envelope for safekeeping - 5 minutes ago

Checked Dance Blog for the very first modern lesson that i am about to be able to go-1 minute ago

Playing that Lilo and Stitch Disc on repeat " Can't help falling in love" - 2 secs ago and it's still playing

Prancing around the room to the song- 1 sec now

I LOVE OFFDAYS (:


and i badly wanna watch Lilo and Stitch all over again. Anyone have the disc??

Felt really satisfied after Candy's Open Class. (:
Groove is there but the feel, i really have to let it go sometimes.
It's about not caring who's gonna watch you, judge you, dance and when you are done with it. Walk out of the room knowing only oneself understand that feeling.

Shut up and Dance i'd say

Chillax, cause we are young bloodz for the moment. hahas ewww

The one thing that disappoints me could be

i am a dancer, performer but i'm definitely not a choreographer. :(

i tried and i'm gonna try again the next time.

Just cant express myself in my own actions. Throw me your story maybe i can portray it really well, but my story?

Just a thought, why am i so hostile towards every breathing thing nowadays?

hahas sorry if i am being very aloof. Just be ignorant. hahas
i am just being a bitch these days. So be a bitch to me too, i really wouldn mind.

After all, i am used to always giving the wrong impression.

Splurging? hahas Buy this, buy that cause i am really in a bad mood. I am living this aimless routine that's ___ . But somehow some way, i won't be stuck in this forever.


i remember vividly that at the start of my dance journey i said this :" i dont need recognition, i just need encouragements at this phase."

One year later..

Now ," i am gonna get that recognition that i didnt wanted in the first place, i dont need any more encouragements ."

Lethargic? Been feeling like this for quite a long time. Things turned ugly today. Sometimes i really just wanna trade places or leave my role of being the middle person. It's really tiring.

If you were in my shoes, till this point i feel that your apology came a little late. Since when did the three of us had an interlinked friendship that cant coincide? I feel so disappointed that today, if you realised; i left. I left for the sake of wanting you to register the fact.

This problem persists. And if you insist, it will still exist. So let me be truthful to you. I don't wanna play nice angel with you anymore. I am not peacemaker. I am like any other human, with feelings. Stop taking advantage of this.

Logically, i think you should have thought of all this before even "shutting" yourself off. If everything was about satisfying others' requirements, i am sure i have done that more than you for the past few months. Tolerance has a limit.

I treasure this thing we call friendship, whereas your words today hurt me or rather pissed me off. Therefore i took off. Saying sorry at night later on, might seem futile at the day itself.

Self reflection?


If there was only one person trying to hold the broken pieces and fragments to savage the situation, at some point in time; this person will give up and blow them like dust to the wind.

________

on to a better note, i got back my motivation.

and i actually have a concept in mind to improve on my waack.

This prop is really handy. I'm gonna see how it goes.

(:

EPIC this month i have three full days OFF. (:

dope or what?

and today because of certain incidents, i splurged on impulse because yes

MOODY.



i want to eat yoghurt now.

HAHA


kitkat crumbs and granolas.





i am officially having an

emotion-lag

"To deny one's past is to deny oneself"


Now the tables are turn,

i can fairly say it's been a time where i've seen most true colours.


There's only two places which have fair judgement.

The Ring vs The stage

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