"unrequited love was a dress rehearsal.."

liting, it's time for you to move on, look forward and really let go. Pack up your feelings like how you pack up your costumes backstage, like how you held hands and did a standing ovation. That was the moment, you should have awoken and realise many things ahead are waiting for you. Your fairytale has ended. Now it's a nightmare for you to continue. Snap back to reality because what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. All the simple moments, crossing paths and little encouragements will serve as your motivations. 4 months,17 weeks are your ready to commit again? Dont cry because there's so much better things ahead after 4 months awaiting for you to discover. Now is just not the time. Jiayou! (:

P.s one thing for sure, he saw it. He is proud of you. (;
“只想跟你说，学跳舞的孩子不会变坏。。” 你看到了吗？

junwei said it right. (;

i found this moment quite touching , hahas the softer side of gin.

FAIRY OUR TALE GEMS 4
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10.15 am and i just slept from last night 1am till now. It was a good 9 hours of sleep. (; Breakfast today is sinful :( OH SY and auddy hahas i finished the hot dog bun just 5 mins ago. hahahs..I realised i didn't shed a tear during finale, but only when i found both of you did i really start to feel the tears welling up. hahas all that emotions swinging.

Finally, this concert has pulled off. Though yes, i bumped into serene ._. during party scene but still we managed to cover it up immediately. hahas and battle SCENE omg.WTH hahhas SHIOK. I scream like some kns ahlian. HAHAHHAS i think my reputation just went down the drain.OH WELL. (;

and yes.. QUICK CHANGE. I DID IT. hahas less than 30 seconds. HAHHAHAS BUT i wouldn have done it without Estee's help, Kevin's, Martin's, Shauna and Nicole hahahs during the multiple backstage runs and rehearsals. (; But solely on that day, i did it myself. I danced waltz and poker face with a 4 inch high heels. That's an accomplishment i will never foresee one year ago. lol. Painful but i must say, that feeling on high heels when you'r dancing is just different.

oh and before lyrical item start yesterday, i bet i was singing set me off so good it really set a really stressed and tensed up martin off for lyrical HAHHAHAHAHAHS

Hope that joycelyn would get better and so is for farhanah.

I'd like to thank so many of you who've been here for me through the ups and downs. No words can express this gratitude, but ok i can give you my bone crushing hug if you wanna. :D

Lastly, thanks for the bouquet of flowers(dnjh), toblerones ( edwin), and pocky(dnjh) plus the ultra hotdog bun( sy and auddball). and a very meaningful card that made me teared. hahas (; thanks DNJH
i will definitely miss all the trainings and every hectic moments i rushed down from work every single day just to make it. Thanks to those who helped me brush up my steps and wiped away my tears.

all these memories i will keep, every moment on stage presents opportunities for you to touch people with your dance, your lines and your emotions. Every second forgone is an impact left on the lights shining on you awaiting for your inner voice to shine through and reach out to not only the audience but to your fellow mates dancing with you onstage. This is why i dance, i pressed on, i commit and i lied. Because it means more than everything to me. I dont really bother anymore if no one understands, because so long as i do, nothing can stop me. i will dance till i'm old brittle bones. hahas (;

if you guys have my pictures please send it to me. thanks ! there's an urgent need for me to get a camera soon. lol till then..

see ya :D

Cinderella are you really that happy?

Composure

so it's really difficult to wake up and realise that one day, i will start to lose contact with all of them if i do not continue writing...and that's precisely what i dreamt of last night which result in me waking up tearing.
My life is so busy, there is hardly anytime for me to meet up with my close ones and i really must thank Martin Shing for asking me to continue to write on. Thanks Mr Popcorn. It's gradually becoming a part of me, this space has so many memories. :(


so let's start off way back when i actually was still studying for my supp... the days where my room would be so packed with accounting notes that i can hardly sit around and do my revision. But all efforts paid off and i can proceed to the next semester. That's crucial as foreseen that i'm gonna have 6 core modules next sem.3.2 It's a crippling drop which gonna affect my GPA and still, i'm gonna give it my all for the last sem.
Accounting
i had this for dinner almost every single day. My beloved MUIFAN :D hahas (; awesome. Bad for digestion but still, it makes me feel like a korean mama. HHAHAHS you know those crazy dramas where they just love to eat soup with rice. ._.

And there was the sip period where i received this two things..( it means alot to me) Thanks (;

Edwin Gan's
Lavone's

Then finally the concert came, where i made so many sacrifices on the line for this. I must say it's worthed it after last night's performance. I felt every moment on stage was crucial, you have only one shot to give your best so everybody, we've breakthrough! (; but what's after breakthrough is gonna be even better yes/no? More redbull! (; And to think that i really hardly sleep well this whole period. :( Sleep is so important to me.

i love this photo with JESSCY, it has that we are some Taiwanese actresses that's taking photo together backstage "feel". OMG ( bounces around happily) hahahas

If it's meant to be spastic, it's gonna be spastic.

Basically i have so much more to write,so i will come back later hahahs! (: This place is officially private now. :D I like how quiet and peaceful it is, without any voyeurs. ha.

Second show, is gonna be even DOPER.