mum says its time to activate cafe project one year from now.
gotta make it work, this is my dream. it is what i rather do than stay in a box.

" there is a box in your heart, nobody can move it, but only yourself"

three cookies dunked in milk

knowing me, i know this is probably the longest yet i have ever decided to come to this space and write something. That's cause i have certain issues about the word "sharing" . Anyway, the NYC trip was really much needed, it got me thinking, got me exposed to different culture, and most importantly i got to meet up with martin.

I know i have always wanted to do this post, but i guess procastination or rather, writer's block more like it. But this is dedicated to lsy and auddball. (:

Sometimes, when you thought the people you trusted the most would be the ones around you and would understand and stick by you, but i have lived with a more realistic fact that one day, you will realise everything happens for a reason and the people that you thought you trusted the most and could count on are the ones that , will leave you; especially during the past two to three years, this fact that ive integrate at the back of my head gradually sinks in.and learning it through the really hard way. Im sorry i admit, i used to thought of that to the both of you. But then every single time when i fall, when i had no one, when i decided to not show the true side of me, you girls know, you girls know what's going on, what's real, what's right and what's wrong and would always ( no matter what) stood by me, without any complaints, just hearing me out. Sometimes, they term this as people you thought you would never meet in this lifetime, but i met you , in fact two of such people that have probably changed me and taught me to fend for myself and know the person i really am inside out. This means alot.

And during the whole trip i realise, that hey, yunn, you'r right. We are family. We are friends and family at the same time, cause i realise everytime we fight, or when we argue or when there's issues, we dont judge each other, and we dont get angry at each other for more than a day because we know we cant do without any in this friendship. And i can never find someone who wants to bring out the best in me and be proud of who i am. For that, i would never trade this for anything else.

clothes over bros, lsa over hoes HAHA. i know i always say that i dont wanna EVER get married in this lifetime, but if i ever ever change my mind, you girls would be the one walking with me down the aile. Unless, i die or something cause this year, fuck all that shit, im gonna be a happy girl ( no more emo shit, or fake friends or fake contact lens or fake eyelashes or fake this fake that), and im gonna fight for my happiness. Because someone thought me this, and feels happy when im happy and that person has already filled that spot. thanks to yew.its not for forever, but no matter what, you have thought me so much by loving me.

till then, i wont be writing here as much cause i have realised, i dont need to share so much here anymore, i shall do all my sharing with you people. loved, me