Anna: "First, they put away the dealers,then they put away the prostitutes, they shoot away the bums and beat and bash the queers.Turned away asylum seekers, feathers suspicion and fears. We didn't raise our voice, we didn't make a fuss. It's funny there were no one left to notice when they came for us."

Peyton: Anna, it's not about who i am, ok? It's about who they are, there are people who hate and they divide and they feed off people who don't fight back.

Peyton: Yeah, i could laugh this off but what about the girl that can't? Who's gonna help her?
Silence only makes them stronger.


Oh and derrick heres a super meaningful quote for you!

Friendship isn't about being inseparable.

It's about being separated and nothing changes.

When you go to ns in about 2 years time you better remember i wrote this 2 years ago (:

It's been almost a week since i last blogged. Working for f1 results in lack of sleep, muscle aches, gastric pains and veins popping out of my feet. My toe hurts and so does my heel. Scrapes of skin resulted from blisters. All in all, it was a great experience and i've definitely learned a whole lot in terms of hospitality even to the point of being sexually harassed. I shall get to that in a bit.

26th and 27th was a killer.

I did ushering. First thing that came to my mind," Smile even when you are not able to or when you are really exhausted". Standing consecutively for 16 hours is no joke. Service is even worse. Caucasian models are fcking hard to please.Sure they have a 100 page full spread cover issue for Elle magazine but they sure do need to fix their insides.

I can't help to ponder about being professional. It's just a simpler way to say that a person is at a disadvantaged yes/no? Being professional, you have to be a role model for all your staff.Even worse, you would be the last to have breaks or you won't even have one.As much as i used to detest my manager in charge for the first day, i give her full respect at the end of the three days. All the criticisms made me learned a whole lot and she gave me a hug at the end saying i did a really good job (: The guys can't even be compared to her professionalism.

Many were drunk and so many of us were being touched at the waist or around the shoulders.
The things that made me really thrown off was how they actually forced it onto you when you are obviously at an uncomfortable situation. Here's a few that was said to me :

"Do you want a blow job?" or " do you want to run away with me?" or " hey , do you dance? I can do the salsa. Shall we go do it after your work?" and " can i take you home?"

No kid.

I felt like fcking splashing the whole champagne to wake the motherfucker up. He's god damn wasted. I could have totally puked right at his face.

I sleep less than 5 hours for the three days consecutively. Reaching home at 3 am and reporting the next morning at Ritz at 9 am sharp. Roadblocks pisses the hell outta me. When you actually felt that you've reached your destination, the end is actually a block and you have to walk another big round.


Not to mention 28th, we had to shift back all the miscellaneous stuff from the paddock to Ritz which was a 15 mins walk at 2 am. All in the name of $10.50/ hr. I've earned 494 buckeroos the whole three days. So not worthed it.

Today

Slept at 4 am and woke up at 10 for hiphop,then locking later and danced all the way till 6pm.
My body is damaged to the max.My feet is so sore i can scream.But friendships made was really worthed it. (: I love all my colleagues at claymore one. I hope to see you guys at Tp or even when i go to Sp or Np. Matilda, Hwee may, Felicia, Wan hwa, Aruni, Samantha and Aunty Poh gek is superwoman (: 62 and still working banquet. Kudos to her. I learned so much hokkien from her :D

Alonso! yeah! The race was awesome. Watching it live and hearing it live was a memorable experience. Serving racers is like so once in a lifetime kinda thing. Love it (:

I need my sleep now and i'm so sorry to those that msged me and i didn't replied. That's just cause i'm really tired and by the time i reached home, all i can think of is S.L.E.E.P.Dance tmrow and vetting on friday. Stab me now.

Ciao.

I had Hip hop for breakfast, Locking for lunch ( 6 girls locking is dope!) and Breaking for dinner.I feel very calm when i hear his voice, at least i know i'm not so tired after 9 hours of dance.

If someone ever wrote me a song like this, i will be so mesmerized hahas (: I love brown parcels , inspirations,encouragements and dance.All that anticipation and excitement just can't wipe off that smile off my face.Locking and Modern tomorrow till 9 pm. Is it me or am i falling in love with dance?It's not even a human hahahs. W/e

And to serene, its not that i don't like guys. Hahas its just that i like dance more and i got no time for all that dating drama! Since i don't like to commit to a person, might as well commit to something i love. When it comes, it comes.The more you go and chase it, the more it eludes you yes /no? Too tired to share my life (:

Just tonight, i almost died in Sheila's class. I need to train up my jazz.I really want to do out the routine without being afraid of expressing.But i'm still not able to curb with the problem of people staring. >:/ Super underperformed. All the Plie,Tendu,Passe, Foot positions and my spins and Cinead turns :( Walau all the basics. Too long never flex i swear.

Good, now i have something to improve on.I just realise i can't go next week to complete the routine because the real modern training is on when it's cancelled today like super last min. -.-
But it's ok i can't wait for whacking wild cherry workshop and i love my code edge tee ! (:

SCREWED

Friday i have no idea how i'm gonna explain that i can't go for practice because F1, 3 days straight. 8.30am to 1.30am consecutively.BYE BODY CLOCK. HELLO EYE BAGS HELLO MUSCLE ACHES HELLO BLUEBLACKS HELLO DARK EYE RINGS. DIE.

Not to mention, i have Reggae on Saturdays and Modern at 6-9 on Wednesdays.For this once in my life i need someone to tell me a BIG FAT :"I told you so".

On a brighter sunshine and optimistic side, DANCE= BYEBYE FATS !! HELLO ABS AND MUSCLES :D
F1= KACHING KACHING. And i heard David Beckham's coming and other royalties!!

Tahan liting just tahan this week heh. (:

Quote today from Training :"Familiarity breeds contempt" so true right?? I thought so.
And i'm beginning to realise that life gives you the illusion of the numerous things you want.But when reality hits you, life gives you the things you detest the most. It's always the opposite of what you hope for no? Hence life is unfair and it always has been.But i choose to make the opposite work.I won't bow down or defeat.As much as i complained, i'm still so happy that i'm dancing every day.I can breathe it in my body.

Lights off.

すごいい～　I got into Locking and Hiphop 4.
HAHHAHAHAS Biggest joke of the year. Nvm. C said this today :" You like Locking and Whacking so much, next time i buy loacker for you". -.- Get it Lo-acker?

I'M VERY INSPIRED TO GO LEARN LOCKING NOW.Just you wait.I lock for you to see!

PEOPS FLOOR THE LOVE 2008 IS HERE AGAIN! (: (Click image for more details or check out the website!)
Tickets for Floor The Love will be on the day.

$15 entry per person, audience and participant alike. People entering more than one category only
have to pay $15.

Seating arrangements - there will be a battle area and everyone has to sit or stand around it.


Anyone interested to go with me? I smell you derrick njh HAHHAHAHS (:

Dance in Oct

1-7th October -Comm based project performance

11th-15th
H.K and Ones to watch

16th Oct 08 Wild Cherry Workshop
Level: Whacking, Beginner
Time: 830pm – 10pm

18th October ( Code Edge 8pm Zouk Dance battle)

19th Oct 08 Wild Cherry Workshop
Level: Soul, Beginner
Time: 4pm – 530pm

20th Oct 08 only ( JP JP JP JP JP JP!! <3<3) style="text-align: center;">I LOVE OCTOBER! How can i not right?

Efforts

I have nothing to say about anything.If you get this video, you will get how i feel. That's bout it.

You know how last time i used to dream that i killed my aunt who was trying to murder my mum who was pregnant.I thought that was it.I mean these kind of dreams that people obviously would not wanna dream of.Last night, i had another one which was s.i.c.k.

You know how schools would always organize stuff during valentine's day? Well, in some way or another my "school" was really special.The rules are simple.The game is however inhumane.You know how the first years are always strangers and shy about each other. We don't mingle.So each girl is suppose to hook up with a guy that you don't know of. Here's where it gets interesting.

Each girl can choose any body parts ranging from the upper body (arms, fingers,chest etc.) to the lower body, except for the face.They were given a really sharp knife and 3 hours to complete the task.The first girl to bring back the piece of flesh she had cut wins a date with her victim.

Well, it all boils down to whether if she dares to do it.No anesthetic.Pure blood and pain.The worst part is they are all hot guys so well, it's like scarring a pretty face isn't it?

I remembered clearly how he looked like.It's one of these rare occasions you actually remember your dream clearly.I did.Tall, black haired and a white handsome face.Black t-shirt, white cargo pants till his knees with a pair of loafers.Everything is so defined except for his face.I guess people don't usually get to see the faces of who you dreamt of clearly.The sweetest thing he said or did was to allow me to slice off his flesh at his calve.

I obviously didn't.It was half an hour till the deadline.We were heading back to school in the cab.Untouched and my knife had no bloodstains.

The last thing i remembered before the sun shone on my bedsheets this morning, was that the piece of flesh i handed over was mine and not his.

Out with Miss Cindy Poon Balloon (:

Right (hers), Left's (mine)

eh not fair lurh, she standing on steps k (:

Hope you're feeling much better now.Time passes fast.You will know what you want during this period.Just keep searching and never stop.Seek advices and go learn and pursue what you have not for the past years.You will be greatly missed next year when we seperate into different classes.I hope you excel in ticketing and i will cook good food for you in culinary. (: i will pass you the untouched negatives online alright! The one that makes you look like some mixed angmoh hahahhahas.Thanks for encouraging me to go for auditions if not last night would not have been such an awesome time spent in the studio.Love you.Take care (:

i will eliminate all the "what if"s and " if only"s in my life.

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I know what i want now.Everything is very clear.Diploma in dance, here i come .There's no hesitation at all.There's no limits to what i want.I want to be versatile.What you can do is support me till the very end and encourage me and tell me every now and then, achievements come from hard work and pain.Most importantly, perseverance ,discipline and faith. I will appreciate that. I really will.My very first life decision and i'm so proud of it (:

I am a dancer. Now and in the future and will always be.

Tonight, i'm willing to go and venture into locking.I love how funky it is.Yeah~
Audition was awesome.I hope i get into Reggae and Hiphop 1 2 or 3.

"Explore your muscles." Yes i will.

"The person who seeks all their applause from outside has their happiness in another's keeping."

I did a good deed today.Bless me yes? Thats what i would say.But hell no.I got cheated into the wrath of too much kindness.Yes derrick.If i can, i will dump you 16 stations at one go.Simple story.Any kind soul who made porridge and barley and deliver sincerely to your doorstep doesn't deserve this treatment aye?I could have reached the airport in 20 mins but you had me on bus 34 all the way to PUNGGOL.Some secluded place where people address you with a whistle. ARGHHH People in the north and west really freaks me out.No offence but experience really tells me so. Its bus 34 from the OPPOSITE you piece of noobcake.Dozing off on the bus like i always do made matters worse.By the time i woke up, i landed myself at a LRT station called Meridian.You may wanna check the Mrt map out to see where it is.

Its not even in the actual map.(Some detour path in Punggol.) Btw i hadta go through all seven retarded LRT stations before reaching Punggol and see some light of Mothergod nature.Who in the hell name a station,"Kadaloor"?To me, it sounded like some name for an ancient Greek king. You had me good dude.You had me good. 2 hours on Mrt and bus.Interesting, i finally understand the real meaning of this phrase:"好心没好报".You are so gonna pay for it ! Well, you know i'm ever angelic and forgiving so just treat me to a Hyatt high tea buffet and wash my car for me.I may consider forgiving you.HAHAHHAHS jk (:

Sakaed and bought this finally.I can't for the movie.Your secret's safe with me ;)

I really admire the love Nathan and Haley have for each other.Well, my philosophy for girls who always say this pet phrase:" I seriously need a boyfriend".Well,its equivalent to saying that you miss being touched and man handled.Yes/ no? Break it down and you will see why i say that.

Back to OTH (:

"Three words, eight letters.Say it and i'm yours"

Airport,Twilight and Swensens with one of my best girls to be with.We always finish each other's sentences. Even worse say the same things at the same time.Can't help it since we were born on the same date right (: Picked up the mechanical pencil and started sketching one of Chanel's collection this season.Btw,I hope you ace that Poisson and maths paper tmrow.Love you.

Brooke Davis
"Here's my philosophy on dating. It's important to have somebody that can make you laugh, somebody you can trust, somebody that, y'know, turns you on... And it's really, really important that these three people don't know each other."

Well, because perfection is a flaw.

Saw a withered rose and i decided to sketch once again after so long.Not feeling happy at all.This piece didn't turn out quite well. :/ Here and there, i must have been inspired by Peyton to draw.Hahas all in the name of One Tree Hill.

and this is addiction. Call me slow or w/e

Brooke: "I wanted you to fight for me."
Lucas: "How was i suppose to know that?"
Brooke: "You just are."


I eat girls with an attitude like Brooke.

If you get what i mean..this is captivating.Results are out.Improvements made.I guess i've done my best and i'm gonna learn from my mistakes.October's coming.A year older but nothing seems to change at all.But i've definitely learned so much.

Passion is not just a word we say.Its something that we make it happen.Passion and Procrastination does not go hand in hand.


Someone asked me this:

"what is dance to me?"


It is everything good in my life.

The pillar to my weaknesses, the cure to my damage, the strength to perseverance.Its the best thing that has ever happened to me.Thats how much it weighs in my heart.Be it even if i'm lost or tired, i will find my way through because i will, without a doubt dance till the day my body fails me.It's influential in every single way.That's something i will never trade for anything.I feel inner beauty when i ace a routine.Dance is never materialistic.It makes me feel happy.Especially since it's so difficult to be happy as we grow up.I guess if there was ever a flaw to it, is just that i love it more than anything or any person.

come to think of it, its the one thing that makes me scream and wails and feel the adrenaline rush down my spine.It gets me so excited i just can't find words to describe.I screamed at this routine maybe because i did in dreams but we did it in jazz way.This is way dop`er.You've gotta watch it.

Chats at Starbucks, laughs a plenty.Clear the misunderstanding,1 am at Cathay.Now i feel so much better.I'm sorry i felt that way girls.Maybe its just that i'm really lost and tired.But anyhow, i will never leave or drift or forget you guys. (: F1 together aite. Its gonna be tough but we're gonna have so much fun.
I finally caught this like FINALLY~ (: sweet 花よりだんごFINAL!

Ｍy 花沢類 is damn charming >.<

Plans for this whole week :
Monday> chalet and swimming with Poon (which is later)
Tuesday> out with my girls for this movie (:
Wednesday> Dance
Thursday> Jess's chalet
Friday>Out to buy Hoodie, bangles and Diamantes at little India with Poon balloon.(If she didn't forget that is :] )
and Ice skating, Roller blading and Cupcakes and 5 kg plus our Fishy therapy!
Saturday>Wacking,Reggae with Viona and Zouk with my slut and whore
Sunday>MTV

and i really wanna get one out of these.But i dunno which :/ damn, tell me your opinions ok. (:

and D.I.Y passes time fast heh Anyone wants a manicure? I can help you.


文化レセン　④ｔｈじゅうがつ　始めましよ～　いしよけんめ　勉强しようと思います！みんながんぱで　じよずになりましよ　YOＳＨ!

じゃ～またね(:

I'm going to dance in Hong Kong (: ONE WORD : DOPE
Check the studio out..
fcking excited!!!!! The instructors are HOT.

This is the kind of hip hop i like.Slow yet full of control.If i'm right, this is how Ryan wants us to dance.The muahchee (: , seperate but not break and all your muscles are locked in every movement.Clean yet smooth and strong at the same time.

I bet the impact if i see it live will make my heart throb to the bass.
Today is not just a day for me.I spent it with reggae and i had fcking no idea what i was doing but it was so much fun.

I guess at the end of the day, its still all down to myself to decide what road i should take.But i know i wanna compete.So i will not give up.

Sometimes its so hard to do all this alone.
To persevere alone, to believe in something so vague that is unforeseen in the future, to be in a complete unfamiliar environment.To give up something for another.An aching body.All alone.I have to believe in myself.But it gets really tiring after awhile.I know i'm doing something i love so it should be fulfilling but its so difficult when you don't have friends who share the same passion.Even worse when they don't understand.Just today, not even one of you was here for me.what happened?
Time will tell and fill my space.

Other than that, i solemnly swear I will not depend on a mirror because it makes my dance flat.I must travel and give levels. The audience is my mirror. Shucks, my ankle's been hurting (since dunno when) every time i exert force on it.I must have sprained it :/


Ok i confess.I splurged again. Because 本小姐今天心情不好。。。
再见

Clothes off


Let's just be
i know i love JP like more than any boys out there but Gigi torres is the sex.She do all female hiphop dancers proud.Two videos, two choreographies.Two inspiration.Fck dope

Fireworks. Its pretty.. i wanna watch it.Maybe i should fly to Brisbane.
HK from 11-15 oct won't be in SG.Tell me what you guys want. Almond cookies or anything.
Latin was alright.
But i don't feel the satisfaction as before hmmm :/

Kay, i know and we all know that all the mamas on earth love to exaggerate.But this time i have to agree with my mum. Albeit all the free and easy trips we have taken to HK, i'm super excited for this one because this time we are going to stay in the Venetian Hotel in Macau.

You must be thinking: "Hmm.. woah whats this"act chim high class place" in the canto style county??
I'm going to show you the pictures and you are going to be like JAW drop with me.Ok i know the pics are like super small cause all the photos i googled are all from flickr.So i shall give you the links .
Click on the pictures for a larger view

I cant wait to go take the real pics and stay there.AWESOME.
Movie and Swensens tmrow with a and s (: .I'm gonna use you voucher, strip you naked with my topless five .On the other hand, i finally finally did my extensions.Thanks Poon for accompanying me <3

ok my blog song is not emo , its used for modern.I want to listen to it everyday to register the beat and bass. HAHAS and i still don't know how to soo -ter -loo, drag my feet while doing a turn or do a turn on air.I heard the dancers in japan can do like 5 pirouettes at a go. WTF.Why do we have to dance like muah chees?? Seperate but not break :/ the chimalogies of Ryan makes my head spin in whirls. Dance chalet on monday. FOOD :( i'm suppose to keep fit lurh damn it. Stadium tmrow, die die i'm gong to wake up to run and feel the sweat.

lights off and alarm set.